十架的路 The Path with God

十架的路 The Path with God


This article will write in Chinese follow by English version.



十架的路是一條什麼樣的路

沒有金銀 沒有財寶

但卻有滿滿的喜樂



十架的路是一條什麼樣的路

沒有昂貴的跑車和華麗的房屋

但卻有奇妙的恩典和無限的祝福



十架的路是一條富足的路

帶領人走出黑暗迎向光明

十架的路是一條祝福的路

當下不明白 日後卻結出平安的果子

喔 十架的道路是神為我預備的路

十架的道路是我一生將走之路



這是我在今年一月份時有感而發寫的一篇小短文。還記得那一天我在醫院的走廊上看到一位正在哭泣的婦人,她哭的好傷心。於是我走近她的身旁問她發生何事?原來是她在為她的先生辦理住院手續的時候,她的先生忽然過世了。後來經過深入了解，原來她和她的先生是宣教士。 他們從遙遠的國度來到台灣在醫院中幫助那些困苦的、貧乏的、傷心的人，不但把自己的財物都獻給這塊土地的人最後甚至連生命都獻上。

這個宣教士沒有任何的保險經濟也真是困難呢！我當時其實薪水很少，少的不可思議,但是當下被感動做了一個決定把口袋中僅有的大鈔500元拿出來,給了那個宣教士的太太。我跟她說:「雖然這錢不多但是多少有幫助且是上帝要給她的」然後我們互相擁抱，後來她跟我分享了許多關於他們在醫院服侍的事, 在離開前我為她做了一個禱告,並且告訴她說：「感謝上帝,因為有一天我們在天家還會再見面且我相信上帝過去如何使用她的先生,在他死後還是會繼續使用他為主做見證…」。直到現在我都還記得那位宣教士的太太在禱告過後破涕為笑的面容呢！

這個宣教士讓我有很深的感動跟想法,有些人也許會覺得這些為主奉獻一生的人真是蠢到極點,把錢拿出來就算了,你看,連死了喪葬費都拿不出來…可是卻給了我很大的激勵,是阿!十架的道路看似沒有金銀財寶但是卻有滿滿的平安與恩典存在,而這也是我這一生要追尋的道路呢!



The Path with God



The path with God is without a lot of money and property but full of joyfulness.

The path with God is without those luxury cars and expensive houses but fulfill with lots of amazing graces and blessings.



The path with God is a way leads people from the darkness to the hopefulness. It is also the only way for bearing the fruits with mercy and peace.

People may not agree or seem to understand about the path with God. However, this is the way God is calling me to walk with. It’s also the way God is preparing for me. For now on I will follow the path with God and walk in it with Him during my life time.



This note above was written around January this year. I always remember that day with a story of a missionary’s death. I saw a lady who was crying badly somewhere around the hospital’s corridor. I was so queries about what’s up to that lady, therefore, I walked closer to her and asked if she needed help indeed. She shared with me that her husband just passed away while she was away for helping him to register for hospitalized. During the conversation with her, I discovered that her husband and she were both missionaries overseas to Taiwan. They spent the rest of time and money in hospitals for those patients and their families in needs. The missionary was sold out all the money to Taiwan just for devoting God’s loves to those strangers he never knew before. In the end, he even devoted his own life here.

People may think that they were so foolish to give up their better lives in their own country to Taiwan. The most pathetic thing was the missionary dead even without any cents for his funeral. However, I know that’s not true. I was so encouraged and touched by what they did to my people here. I gave what I had in my pocket (not really a big sum) to the missionary’s wife and prayed with her together. In the end of our prayer, she gave me a big smile and we comforted each other by hugging and knowing that the missionary was in Heaven with God and was going to be used by God even he passed away.

Yes, it seems silly to give up everything and following Jesus. However, the path with God is full of amazing graces and joyfulness what is really different from this world. And the words of this bookmarker is not only remaining me about that missionary’s story but also telling me that how great for Jesus die and paid His life to all of us.

Rejoice 歡呼

英文的“rejoice ”是一個動詞意指快樂。它使我想起我的已故的祖母。我的阿嬤是一位受日本教育美麗且優雅的淑女。她和我的祖父是因為我的大伯公(我爺爺的大哥)當媒人而結婚的。但是 最令人不可思議的是我的姑婆 也就是爺爺的妹妹竟是是我祖母的同班同學。我其實還真不明白，為什麼有人可以不用談戀愛就結婚。不過，我永遠記得,在婚姻生活中 我的阿嬤總是微笑的面對她所面臨的任何困難。



她的晚年因著阿公過世及癌症而受了不少苦。雖然，她其實很理解她的健康狀況，但仍在我們面前表現出很堅強的模樣。很多人也許不明白，為什麼她要在我們面前故做堅強。不過，因為我是和阿嬤很親近的孫女，因此我可以理解，這完全是出自於她對我們的愛，她只是想鼓勵我們 ,不讓我們擔心。


她在世的最後一句話是台語的三個"好"用以回答牧師的三個問題。我永遠記得那一天，牧師和從教堂來的兄弟姐妹來到她的床邊探望她. 牧師問她是否願意耶穌幫助她,減輕她的痛苦並且和她在一起? 她彷彿用盡全身的元氣回答說，好 她想耶穌幫助她，安慰她，並與她起一起。在那之後阿嬤陷入很長的昏迷然後就離開這個世界了。對我而言 阿嬤只是暫時的離開 這張書籤做完後我忽然很想阿嬤 。 而書籤中可愛的熊讓我聯想到，現在她一定在天上和耶穌一起唱歌和跳舞。而且，有一天，我將會再見到她且和她一起在哪裡歡呼呢。

"Rejoice" is a verb to define as an action of joyful or happy. It reminds me about my late grandmother. My grandmother was a delicate and elegant lady. She was educated with Japaness background and was wed with my grandfather by a matchmaker. Her matchmaker was my grandpa's eldest brother. The most incredible thing was my grand auntie who was my grand father's younger sister was my grandmother's classmate. I really did not understand that why people were married without falling in love with others. However, I always remember that my grandmother always smile to those difficulties whatever she was facing in her marrige life.

She was suffering with cancer during her later live. That was the moment I closed to her in deepth. Although, she was very understanding about her health condition but still remained as faithfulness in believing that she would be cured in front of us. People may not understand that why she wanted to do it. However, as I was the very closed grand child to her, I could understand that due to her devoted love to us she just wanted to cheer us up.


Her last words in this earth were three yes for answering pastor's three questions while the pastor with a group of sisters and brothers from church came to her bedside to visit her. I always remember that day when she replied that yes she wanted Jesus to help her , comfort her and be with her. This bookmarker with the word rejoice just comfirmed me that my grandmother is now in heaven singing and dancing with Jesus. And, yes one day I will meet her and join her for rejoicing.

I know who holds tomorrow 我知誰掌管明天

"I know who holds tomorrow" is one of my favorite hymns. It starts with "I don't know about tomorrow, I just live from day to day. I don't borrow from its sunshine,For its skies may turn to gray. Many things about tomorrow, I don't seem to understand;But I know who holds tomorrow, And I know who holds my hand.....". Yes, there may have lot of things happened tomorrow but whatever the things are, God will always be the path with us.



Ostrich is one kind of animal what to be represented as someone who does not face the difficulties and just put the head underground as if he can't see anything else then the bad things will not happen. Well, that's really a misunderstanding for this big bird. However, the point of the way for ostrich face the problems makes me get different ideas about it.   I think ostrich is the most humble and faithful big bird in the world. It may because it knows who holds tomorrow and who is going to help it. As those calligraphy words "I don't worry about tomorrow" in this bookmarker, yes there is not thing to worry. God will lead our way and will hold our hands.Wow, this may be a gift for someone who just made a deal with me. he he he







"我知誰掌管明天"是我很喜歡的一首聖詩 中文的歌詞是這樣的:"我不知明天將如何，每一天只為主活，我不借明天的陽光，因明天或不晴朗，我不要為將來憂慮，因我信主的應許，我今天要與主同行，因祂知前面路程。有許多未來的事情，我現在不能識透，但我知誰掌管明天，我也知誰牽我手。...."是的，明天有可能會發生很多我們無法參透的事情，但不管發生什麼事情，我相信上帝都將永遠與我們同在。



鴕鳥常被誤解為一種不願面對困難逃避現實的動物，有趣的是,我們常認為鴕鳥在遇到危機時，只是會將頭埋在地下，好像一旦牠什麼都看不到,那麼壞的事情就不會發生。雖然這實在是對鴕鳥的一大誤解。然而，如果從這一個點來看鴕鳥面對問題的方式，我認為鴕鳥是世界上最謙卑，最有信心的大鳥。這可能是因為牠知道那創造牠的掌管明天，且會幫助它喔。



這個書籤上的這些書法字是篆體的“我不為明天憂慮“! 真的,我們不需要為明天憂煩,因為我相信不管發生何事上帝都會牽著我們的手和我們一同度過。哇，這張書籤也許會成為剛和我達成某種協議的...金小姐的禮物喔! 哈哈哈

My new art work

看到這張有草做背景的小卡片讓我昨晚一直想到SARS時我最愛的是詩篇23篇於是昨晚就一直想要在卡片上弄一隻羊上去,今天下午休息時 終於忍不住製作了這半成品,不過這張是要給自己的喔!

This card has green background with pastures. It reminds me about the verses from Psalms 23 what was my favorite part from bible during the SARS period while I was hospitalised. I started to make this card as a bookmarker in my mind last night. Finally, I made it during the rest time. My work on this bookmarker is not finishing yet. Also, this is the bookmarker belong to me..will not be released to others. he he he...

God sent icecream- my favor NZ icecream

中文請連結下面網址

It's a story how I got the icecream to eat with mom Lindy. We went to Sir buliding to extent my visiting visa in Singapore. On the way along the long& bor ing waiting line I just saw an officer who⋯⋯ looked like a star named Hsieh, Chou Huang but was handsomer than him. So I was betting with my god mother while there was only 5 people in front of me that if I was served by that handsome sir. Well, due to it's so called betting, so there must be the reward for the winner. Mom said that if I was served by that No. 38 counter then she would treat me a NZ icecream which I favored the most. However, if I lost then I shoud keep fit and on diet. As a christian of course, I could use the only way and works all the times' method to win the bet. I prayed for it. Wow, that's so excited while I was the front one for calling. I might go to either counter 43 or 38. So I kept my prayers in my mind. Bingo! In the end I was in counter 38 and served by that officer. People was queries about my shout of joy while I was calling to that counter. 3 days later, mom took me for that icecream. I had the 3 scoops one. See, God cares all our needs and prayers even the smallest thing like this. I know that when ever we pray He will answer. I do not know what God is going to answer and give to you. However, I believe that prayers can make things possible. So try to pray in Jesus's name and you will experience what I had.



This was the story translated from my blog on year 2006



http://juliannehsieh.blogspot.com/2006/09/by-yu-jen-hsieh-new-zealand-ice-cream.html

Bookmarker

This is a gift (bookmarker) which I made for one of sisters in church. I just knew her. She was baptised 2 weeks ago. The big calligraphy word is "Love" in Chinese. The small one says "there is no fear in Love" and which is from 1 John 4:18 in bible. Thanks God for this card because it let us has some ideas about the expansion of new⋯⋯ church buliding. Our care group is going to make some of cards for rising the money in church's founding.


這是一份禮物（書籤），我親手做來送給一位2個星期前剛洗禮的姊妹。那句愛裡沒有懼怕是來自於聖經約翰一書 4:18。感謝上帝給我靈感做這張卡片，因為它讓我們有一些想法。我們的小組將會做出一些卡片義賣用來幫助教會建堂. 且這義賣會很有趣會跟我每年包給學生的糖果形式有點像..敬請期待..
PS這書籤後面有磁鐵可直接黏在書上,然後那書遷中的那顆心的字 是不同語言的愛 是我用火燒出來的喔 很有趣吧 另外今年聖誕節 需要小禮物的請預約 嘿嘿嘿 因為我打算不包糖果還有寫小卡片 所以謝神算 今年要休息一下 

Recovery 恢復

Recovery 恢復

Uncle Wilson was very close to my family when I was young. He treated my brothers and me as his own children. We were visiting lots of Taiwan’s sceneries by his car during our school holidays in the childhood. However, there was a while he did not visit us due to some of quarrels with my father. That was also named ‘The Uncle Wilson’s embarrassing period’ for us. I think we both would feel so awkward to meet each other at that time. That’s a very strange feeling of us even we were not the one who quarreled with him. Many years later, the iced -war between him and my father was stopped in silence after grandmother’s death. Therefore, my family’s relationship with him was in the process of being recovery. Nowadays we renamed our relationships with Uncle Wilson as ‘the grace period of honeymoon’.

Few days ago, Uncle Wilson visited us after his business trip in south of Taiwan. Surely we got some great fresh farmed harvests from him. Moreover, we also had great conversations in remembering our childhood with him. It’s really a treasure for having the opportunity to be closed to him again.

I always remember there was a while I was really terrified and misunderstood about Christianity specially when those of people came to me and pointed out that I had sin against God. It’s true that we may feel sad when people come to us and confirm that we are sinners even we do not against the law and think we are innocent.

Bible says that the original sin from our ancestors Adam and Eve had blocked the close relationship from us to God. It just likes the situation of Uncle Wilson and my family. My brothers and I did not do anything to fence the relationship with Uncle Wilson. It’s not our faults but we were burdening from it. Thanks God that we are so blessing to reveal the relationship with Uncle Wilson. But the most grateful thing is that God is love. He sent Jesus to die for our sins and reveal our personal relationship with Him. I really thanks God for given me the opportunity in Knowing Jesus and be His favor friend. It’s true that God never promise that we won’t have to go through the difficult times in our lives but He promised that He will always be with us and never forsake us.

Let’s pray. Dear Lord, thanks for sending your only son Jesus to die for our sins. Also, thanks for renew our lives with you. We know that there may have some moments we feel uneasy and anguish to deal with. But your promises will never fail and your unconditional love will always upon to us. Thank You Lord. In Lord and Jesus name we pray. Amen!


威爾遜叔叔是我們童年時很親近的一位長輩。他對我和哥哥及弟弟如同自己的孩子。小時候我們常因為他開車帶我們出遊而參觀了很多台灣的風景名勝。不過，有一段時間他和我的父親意見不合因此漸漸疏離我們。我們都形容那段時間為'威爾遜叔叔的尷尬時期'。特別是當我們互相見面時都感覺很彆扭。這真是一個非常奇怪的感覺，因為不是我們和他意見不和阿。許多年以後，他和我父親的冷戰漸漸在祖母去世後被化解了。因此，我們和他的關係也在這個過程中被恢復。現在我們重新命名我們與威爾遜叔叔的關係為'恩典蜜月期'。

數天前，威爾遜叔叔去南台灣出差後，帶了一些在地土產來家中給我們打牙祭。除此之外，我們和他之間也談了許多的童年往事呢。能夠有機會再次和他親近實在是很值得珍惜與感恩。

我一直記得有一段時間，我真的很害怕和基督徒對談。那時我還為信耶穌甚至對於基督教有著很深的誤解。特別當這些人來找我，指出我已經得罪神。哇! 自己既不犯法也沒做錯事卻被冠上罪人的封號實在是非常不舒服呢!

聖經說，我們的罪原自於我們的祖先亞當與夏娃。因為他們的關係，阻撓了上帝和我們的親密關係。而這其實和威爾遜叔叔及我們家的尷尬情況有點類似呢。我和我哥還有我弟，並沒有做任何事欄阻和與威爾遜叔叔的親近關係。我們的關係之所以僵化一點都不是我們這些小孩的錯誤呢，但我們卻需要承擔後果。不過很感謝上帝，是如此的關係祝福威爾遜叔叔與我們讓我們的關係得以恢復。但最感恩的是，上帝無條件的愛。祂差派祂的獨生愛子耶穌來為我們的罪付上死亡的代價，為的是讓我們有機會與祂和好。我真感謝上帝讓我有機會認識耶穌，並且成為耶穌的好朋友。

這是真的，上帝從來沒有應許天色常藍，但祂承諾，祂將永遠與我們同在，永不離棄我們。 你相信嗎?

讓我們一起禱告。親愛的主，感謝你差派你的獨生愛子耶穌為我們的罪而死。也謝謝您重新更新我們的生命。我們知道，可能有一些時刻，我們將會感到不安和經歷痛苦。但你承諾永不離棄我們也不撇下我們，你的無條件的愛也將永遠與我們同在。主阿! 真是謝謝你! 奉耶穌的名求，阿門！

Focusing 聚焦

Focusing

I was invited to a care group. That was nearly the first time to meet others in the group. There was a ice-break leading us to the meeting. The leader guided us to a game which I named it 'opposite' in English. This was how the game being played. Every one could choose a number between 1-5 and spoke it out. However, there was a gesture for these 5 numbers. Normally, we would use forefinger to present for number 1 and that was the common body language around the world. As this was the game called 'opposite' we had to speak and act the number in the different combination. For example, I might said 1 but act my sign language other then 1. So that when I saying 1 I could act number 2, 3, 4, or 5.



It's not really a easy job but full of funs.We tried to play it in the first run. After the first run, someone responded to me that I was so relax in this game and not easy to be confused by others. Well, it's not really true. In fact, I might be one of the senior in age in the group, therefor, it's not a easy game for older people like me. However, to succeed in participating in this game would be a challenge for me. As a result, 'Focusing' was the only thing that I could perform. Thus, I shared that how I did it to pass this game to the entire group.This game was really interesting and it remained me something else.



Most of times we would like to deal with life issues without focusing. We used to have a lot of plans but always being dis-attraction by something else which might not be really so co-related to our issues. Focusing is the great way to help us in concentrating of gains.This is just as same as how we respose to our faith. Sometimes the miracles were surrounding us but we could not see it. It was becasue of most of times we were focusing on the wrong places or points.

Be focused and only focus upon Jesus. Surely, it will lead us in the path to meet Jesus and experience in HIS unconditional love to us.



Let us pray. Lord, thank you for helping us to know you and to be your friend. Yes, sometimes we pray but out of focus on you. Please help us to focus only upon you, so that we can experience your presence and love in us. In Lord and Jesus name we pray. Amen!



wow, it sounds I am a preacher. ha ha



聚焦



我被邀請參加一個小組。這是第一次參加的一個小組。小組一開始領導者引導我們玩了一個破冰遊戲，我把它命名為'口是心非'。遊戲是這樣的 ,每個人可以選擇 1-5之間的數字，講了出來。不過，必須比出和這 5個數字不同的手勢。通常，我們會用一根手指比出數字 1，這也是通用的世界身體語言。但是這遊戲之所以被叫做口是心非意旨我們想的和做的是不同的。舉例來說，我可能說1但是我不可以比出1。所以，當我說1時我可以比1以外的 2，3，4或5的手勢。



這並不是一個簡單的遊戲，但充滿了樂趣。我們試著玩。玩了第一次後，有人跟我說，我看起來很輕鬆都不會被混淆。嗯，這不是真的。事實上，對於我這個老人家來說其實一點都不簡單。但是，要成功地參加這場比賽將是一個挑戰。因此，'聚焦'(專注)是我唯一可以做的。因此，我和小組的成員分享其實玩遊戲時我並不管其他人說甚麼只是專注在我所要比跟說的答案上。



這遊戲真的很有趣，且讓我學到別的東西。大多數的時候，我們想處理生活上所遭遇的問題但是卻沒有抓到重點。我們曾經有過很多計劃，但總是一些不相關的問題分散注意力。對焦(專注)其實是一種很棒的方式來幫助我們集中精神邁向成功。這也和我們如何回應我們的信仰一樣。有時其實奇蹟是圍繞我們，但我們卻無法看到它。這是因為大多數的時候，我們都集中在錯誤的地方或點。



專注，單單的專注在耶穌身上。這樣不但會引導我們經歷耶穌奇妙的恩典，也能享受到神在我們身上無條件的愛。



讓我們一起禱告。主啊，感謝你幫助我們讓我們認識你且和你你成為朋友。是的，有時我們雖然禱告卻無法專注。請幫助我們專注讓我們單單仰望你，使我們能夠經歷道您奇妙偉大的愛和大能。奉主耶穌的名祈求，阿們！

哇，寫完之後怎覺得自己有點想是傳道人-牧師。哈哈

Pride and Inferiority 驕傲和自卑

Most of people like to compare the words ' proud and confidence' in relation of stages. It's very common to hear that there is only one line between proud and confidence. I have to admit that once I was very confused by those kind of definitions or explainations. I even tried to join the debates and figure out what was the real line across them.

For many years moved by I still not quite sure about the real line between them. However, I do figure out something else between Pride and Inferiority (self-abased). For many times I did claim that I am the person who do not like to bother others. It's very important to be a independent woman in this era. However, it's very ture for us to declaim something that may mark us high or build our self esteem in some better way we prefers.
These years I found out that Pride and Inferiority are usually co-related in some ways. I remember that there was many times I forgot my money and purse at home during the working days in University. I really do not know how to ask people for borrowing money. As a result, I might not have anything to eat during the luch or dinner time. However, there was once I forgot my money home and my car was just run out of petrol oil. I really need to ask someone for helps otherwise I could not go home. It's really funny moment for me. I really did not know how to do with it. As a christian, I prayed before I went out for asking.
But what I prayed was that if I could find out some bucks from my office. Ha ha, God did humanise me in searching out $10. So in the end, I went to my next door and asked Chiu-Chin for money. Well, that was not really so difficult to do it. I just did not know that how I could not ask for help. It seemed I was popular and easy going with my colleagues among my department. But I just could not speak out about my needs in time. Few days ago, similar situation happened to one of our friends, I did question her why she never asked for help? She gave me the answers which was " she dare not bother others". Finally I got the picture of myself and understand for it. It was our weak ness confidence induced our prides for asking help. It's really not a big deal to ask indeed. We may afraid being rejected by other, however, if we do not ask how can we know the results? Agree?

大多數人喜歡比較'驕傲和自信心'這兩字的不同。我們常聽到，這兩者只有一條線之間。我必須承認，有一段時間我對於這兩個字的定義感到非常困惑。我甚至試著想找出在兩者之間真正的線為何。
多年來，我仍然不太清楚了他們之間的那條線為何。不過，我確發現傲慢與自卑之間（自卑）有著微妙的關係。對於許多時候，我都說自己不喜歡打擾別人。而在這個時代成為一位獨立的女子是非常重要的。然而，非常真實的 這些我們所宣稱的東西可能意味著我們以我們喜歡的方式所塑造建立的高自尊
。
這些年來我發現，通常傲慢與自卑兼有一定的相關聯合作有關。我記得有很多次我去學校教書時我忘了我的錢和錢包在家裡。我真的不知道如開口向別人借錢。因此，我可能就常常沒有吃，午餐或晚餐。不過，有一次我又忘了帶錢，我的車汽油也用完了。我那次真的一定要別人的幫助，否則我不能回家。對我而言這真是有趣的時刻。我真的不知道怎該如何開口。作為一個基督徒，上帝永遠是我們的幫助所以我只好先開口祈禱。
但我祈禱的是，如果我能從我的辦公室找到一些錢。哈哈，上帝還真是幽了我一默!讓我搜索出10元。所以最後，我只能去隔壁像久秦開口借錢。嗯，後來發現開口借錢一點也不難。我只是不知道，我怎麼能這樣的堅持不尋求幫助苦了自己。我其實在學校中人緣很好但我就是無法在需要的時間內說出我的需要。
數天前，類似的情況發生在我們的一個朋友身上，她不是來借錢! 我當時也問她為什麼從來沒有找我們幫助？她給我的回答是：“她不想打擾別人。
哈哈”後來我忽然間恍然大悟和了解。這是我們的薄弱的自信心誘導出我們的嬌傲好讓我們不開口要求幫助。但是其實開口請求幫忙實在不是一大難事呢。也許我們會害怕被拒絕，但另一方面，如果我們不問，如何才能知道結果？同意嗎？

Myth

People say to me 'that's impossible to achieve', ' that's a most difficult way to go.', 'I believe that you can do it if you work hard, but even for me I know that I can't do it'... For some points of view, I am sure that they do really care and love me. But I am who I am. I know that I may not be the most intelligent guy in this world but I have God with me. Everything is possible with God. So God help me and lift me up to the place you main me to be. So that people will know and admit You are God. Oh, God! Please lead me to the path with the blessings from gracious love and soften heart.

有人對我說'這不可能實現'，'這是一個最困難的路。'，'我相信你能做到，如果你努力的話，但即使是我，我知道我也無法達成'。 ..對於這些人的忠告，從某些地方我相信他們真的關心和愛護我。但我知道且很清楚的明白我是誰。也許我不是這世上最聰明最有智慧的傢伙，但我有上帝和我在一起。在神沒有難成的事。所以上帝啊 請 幫助我，指引我到你要我去的地方
於是，人們便可以知道且承認你是神。哦，上帝！請帶我走那一條充滿你的愛與柔軟的心的祝福道路吧!

A conversation with wise professor (Chinese Version)和老教授的對話 (中文精華版)

前些時候為了一些事其實心情很受影響呢!特別當遇到依些有理說不清嘴巴特別厲害之人...反正就是一肚子的不可思議,真不敢相信這事上怎會有這樣子的人出現呢! 某天去找教授,教授真的是老老師不是我這種年輕老師所可以比擬的!教授似乎看穿我的心事,他語重心長的跟我說"學會一個好的做事態度很重要,因為一個好的態度會影響我們一輩子,做事的態度不對到頭來只會傷害自己..."我當下立馬反射性的回應"可是,他們不是只有傷害自己阿,也傷害身旁的人"教授笑了一笑跟我說"對!沒錯!這些人只會在那一刻會是那一天造成我們的不舒服但是卻永遠無法影響我們的人生" 我還是很不解,我跟教授說"我的心中還是有很多的疑惑在 也許要到了你的年紀時才會豁然開朗!"老教授笑而不答的送我離開她的辦公室!
那天回家的路上,我一邊走路一邊品嘗老教授的一番話,忽然之間豁然開朗"是阿! 這些人只會造成我們一時的不快 但卻在我們的生命中沒有任何影響呢!"
我的第一堂課總是花了不少時間再談態度 因為態度的確是決定我們人生的高度呢! 而那些態度對我們不佳或是處事的態度有問題的人只能祝福他們讓上帝在他們的身上做為吧!
同意嗎?

A conversation with wise professor 和老教授的對話 By Julianne Yu- Jen, Hsieh 謝於真

中文版請至谷歌翻譯 或是敬請期待


I was quite confident with my teaching job for many years till I met one group of very unbelievable people. Of course they were not my students but the same generation. It’s really like a nightmare to work and deal with them but for sure I really gained a lot from them.
One day I was really peace off for something and it induced those really bad emotions. However, God sent me the wise professor for releasing my confusing and doubts. I was so unbelievable that how come there are some people who seem talkative and work hard by mouth but actually doing nothing. The most intolerant part for me it’s that this kind of people got a lot of free time to create the problems and stepped others.
Professor Wise is one of the seniors among my career who I respect as a role model. I was murmur to her about my angers among those people. In the end of our business, she told me that “…a good attitude is always helped us to do the right things all the time, and it would lead us to success. Those who were not doing the things with right attitudes might be leading to the failure and it would harm themselves…” I was not really agree with Professor Wise at that time, so I replied “No, I thought them were not only hurt themselves but others.” “Yes, those people might give us hard times but never has anything to deal with our lives. They might let us have a very bad mood but only that day not all our lives. See.” Professor Wise replied me back.
I was full of question marks while I left Professor Wise’s office. Suddenly I realized the point of that conversation and totally agreed with Professor Wise during the time on the way home. Yes, she was quite right. Those people might only give us a very un-pleasure moment but not at all. How wise the Professor Wise was!

People we meet in the working place 職場上的兩種人 謝於真

Two kinds of people in our working places. One is doing for job another one is doing for PR (public relationships). The job as a target person is always busy for doing and fulfill his/her duty in the work. The PR as the 1st priorty person is also busy by talking about how hard he/ she is doing the works.
I never know how to deal with those PR people. Sometimes I am really anguish by them, but nowadays I learned to let go and let God taking control of whole situation. It seems my EQ has been improved. But the truth is I totally give them up.
I do know which kind of people you are but I know that I am not a person who is very good in doing things by mouth.

在我們的工作場所有兩種人。一種是做事的人另一是做公關（公共關係）的人。以做事為工作目標的人總是忙著做事，完成他/她的工作職責。而以公關作為第一優先次序的人也很忙 總是忙著談論他/她如何努力的做工作。
我從來不知道如何處理那些動嘴的公關人員。有時我真的覺得遇到他們很痛苦，但現在我學會了放手，讓神來控制整個局勢。有趣的是我的情緒智商看似得到了改進。但事實是我完全放棄這樣的人。
我不知道你是哪種人但是我知道我不是那種用嘴吧做事的

破繭而出

有好長的時間沒有在部落格上寫寫文章 寫寫我的想法 我 沒有閉關啦 是因為上一個工作 有太多的東西要面對 六個月的時間 對我而言彷彿是在統合這10多年的生命呢 認識我的人 一定會知道 我這個人思想不但很澳洲 且向來對於名和利 沒什麼特別的想法 也不慎積極 因為對我而言 那些東西好像都是在浪費生命 但是 最近我忽然有了強烈想要念書 念PhD的動機 真是要感謝那些刺激我激勵我的人啊 well 小孩子的我回來了嗎? 好問題 恩...不告訴你 當你見到我時就知道了 哈哈
另外 對於教書這事 我有了很多的想法跟看見 當然 仔細檢驗一下 過去我的堅持是對的 只是若有機會再重執教鞭 我想課堂上的元素 不會只有檢視及尊重自己的生命而已 下次要來開個進階班 如何面對其他的生命 原因是
我 做到我在課堂上要求學生的每件事了 但是 發現 忘了提醒 在這個世界上 有很多不OK的人 會做出甚至說出很多不可思議的事情呢! 哈哈 故事多到可以寫一本小說 有機會時我再慢慢的來分享
重點是 有時候我們看到的聽到的也許很真實 但是經過檢驗後確會發現不是那個樣子的
哈哈 所以依莉莎白老師之前和我合開的生涯規劃 他所教的那個用臉的表情就可以推敲一個人的心理 真是受用不少 我想他應該會給我個A Right Elz? 我呢功力越來越好呢
好啦 待我整理好 再來細說 再會啦

讓神動工

上帝給了我一本教科書 叫做愛
而我的病人 家屬 還有身旁的人 都是書中的章節跟主角
還給了我另外一本閱讀手冊 叫做 放下
放下自己 放下驕傲 放下重擔 ...手冊最後 有個考題是申論題
我很努力的寫 很努力的想要回答
並且很雀躍的覺得自己這次終於認真了 終於進入狀況了
沒想到一對答案時 才發現 答案是
讓神動工

wii

話說要買一台wii 來玩已經很久了... 好像是從去年過年一直講到今年的過年前...實在是1 忙 2 沒時間 3 我這個人向來是對別人大方對自己還蠻節省的 (這是真的啦! 我其實是個很簡樸的人呢! 哈哈 一定有人不相信不過是真的啦!) 反正真的是忙啦!總是有忙不完的事呢! 因此就這樣把這事擱下來 過年前真想好好的犒賞一下這兩個月來辛苦的自己 所以下定決心要找個時間帶我們家哥哥的那兩位小公主姊妹們去買台wii大家過年時好來一起玩一玩...嘿嘿 怎知 上帝真是供應的主 就在過年前三日 我們家哥哥竟然在尾牙中抽中一台 wii 哇塞 這下不但省下原本就不飽滿的荷包 還真是來的是時候呢
我自從生病後 發現自己心肺功能不佳 就沒再打過網球了 以前在台南念書時 我可是網球公主呢 幾乎每天下課都往成大的網球場跑 當然那裏有我的網球王子 我想那時也許因為打網球的關係所以身材也很好 這下有了wii 真是開心 又可以打網球 只是我們家弟弟說 不需要有甚麼標準的姿勢 就連坐著隨便亂揮都可以 但是我還是把它當成是在球場打球一樣 不過電玩就是電玩還是沒辦法跟在球場打球的感覺比呢 可是只要聽到 bo bo bo 那球擊在球拍上的聲音 心情就非常的好呢 哈哈 最近發現自己似乎在老化中 開始有許多的回憶跑出來 也開始追尋一些童年的記憶 這可真是好玩呢
不在學校了 但是忽然好想跟學生在一起再打一場羽毛球 好想在經歷一下那種流汗的感覺呢
哇 回到台北工作後 其實還有蠻多的生活習慣正在被改變或是已經改變了呢
例如 不能再飆車了 (再怎麼飆 開車從家裡到台大也不過十分鐘若是不塞車的話) 也不能沒課時 到尖石 竹東或內灣去下午茶一下 (台北市能去的地方不多) 更不能隨興的跟學生一起做瘋狂的事 或是打場好玩的球
最重要的是 不能隨意的搞笑 (也就是有趣的我 小孩的我 那個部分暫時出現較少了呢 )
所以各位看官 下次見到我時保證讓大家驚艷 哈哈(不過也不能把頭髮染得很亮麗) 且真的是變得有氣質了啦
這下我看不會有人反駁了吧 anyway 等我 wii 完後 我要開始來 騎我的小摺去上班了 這下 小黑(小摺) 變成我的交通工具 而我的大黑妞 (CRV)就要被我打入冷宮喽! 好啦 不多寫了 天氣變化 我身上的氣象台也正在報氣溫 咳不停呢 真是糟 看來這個冬天 真是要好好的仰望上帝呢 我可不要因為氣喘控制不好 而有什麼大的意外呢 那就真的是 wii 喽 只是 此wii 是 wheez 的聲音 哈哈哈

阿嬤的形影

阿嬤和阿公都是在國歷二月份時離開這個世界 阿公離開的那天我於隔日開學 因此被家人強迫要上飛機去回澳洲念書 對於華人而言 把書念好光耀門楣好像是件很重要的事 而阿嬤離開那天 我還在台大上班 接到電話時 正在準備下午要去行政院開會的會議資料呢 還記得 那天下午 快四點 我衝衝忙忙的飆車回家 看見救護車把阿嬤送回來 我的眼淚忍不住掉下來 但是依照習俗 不能哭 不能流淚 因此我只好躲在一旁輕輕的拭淚
最近 因為工作的關係 跟環境也有關吧 那個小孩子的我漸漸的不見了或是躲起來了 也許這樣感覺上比較有氣質 但是我可是一點都不喜歡呢 寫完這首歌後 忽然發現自己還真是個才女 哈哈哈 真是可惜呢 沒能被好好的栽培往這條路發展 因為對保守的家族而言這都是不務正業 只能休閒用 要不百年後 也許我是另一個文藝名人也說不一定喔 (哈哈 這是開玩笑的 我還是才疏學淺 有許許多多的不足處 創作 對我而言只是一種抒發 一種情感的宣洩方式而已 ) 同事跟我說覺得我的台語進步了 想想好像是耶 不過 福建話 華語 跟英文 加上最近常用的印尼話 這 還真是有時會讓我一下子錯亂呢
改天 把譜弄好 錄好音後 再請諸位欣賞 這首會催淚的歌



阿嬤的形影
詞、曲：謝於真
細漢的時候 阿嬤牽著我（穩）的手 走過大大小小的街仔路
Se han e shi-guan Ah ma kan duo wen e chou Gean gua dua dua se se e ge ya lo

阿嬤的手 白白夠幼幼 甲我牽緊緊 怕我會不見
Ah ma e chou Bea bea guo yu yu Ga wen kan deo deo Gean wen e pam ki

讀書的時候 阿嬤站在街仔頭 等著放學的我們
Ta che e shi-guan Ah ma kea de ge ya tao Den duo ban o e wen

阿嬤的面容 期待夠歡喜 甲我睛著（仔細）看 驚我會走迷
Ah ma e min zuon Chi dai guo hua he Ga wen gen gou kuan Gean wen e chuao mei



大漢的時候 我牽著阿嬤的手 走過細漢走過的路
Dua han e shi-guan Wen kan duo ah ma e chou Gean gua se han gean gua e lo

阿嬤的手 實在真溫暖 甲伊牽緊緊 怕伊沒時間等我牽
Ah ma e chou Shi-zei gou wen zuan Ge e kan deo deo Gean e meo shi gean dean wen kan

阿嬤要回去前 牽著我的手 甲我說伊這世人就幸福也很值得
Ah ma mei dean kei gen Kan deo wen e chou Ge wen guon e gi ci zuan guo hen ho ma guo ge da

牽著阿嬤的手 我怎樣都不捨得放 不捨阿嬤就這樣離開
Ken deo ah ma e chou Wen an zhua luan mu gun ban Mu gun ah ma guo ah nei li gue

阿嬤 阿 阿嬤 你現在好嗎 牽著伊的手 眼睛張開原來是夢一場
Ah ma a ah ma Ni gim ma ho mo Kan deo yi e chou Ma gu be quan yuan lai chi gi duan mon

阿嬤 阿 阿嬤 你在哪裡 緊緊追尋 眼睛張開阿嬤已經不在
Ah ma a ah ma Ni de deo we Ga ni de deo doe Ma gu be quan ah ma e gen muo de


阿嬤 阿 阿嬤 輕聲叫著別人的阿嬤
Ah ma a ah ma Kean cean guo deo ba zuan e ah ma

阿嬤 阿 阿嬤 牽著別的阿嬤的手
Ah ma a ah ma Ken deo ba e ah ma e chou

但是心頭想的念得都是阿嬤的形影
M guo shin guan tao shoun e lean e loan si ah ma e hean ean

公主與青蛙The Princess and the Frog

好久沒有時間好好的看一部電影了! 原因就是忙忙忙! 各位看官不是我常說的現代人的盲忙茫!至少目前為止還是喔!公主與青蛙The Princess and the Frog 真是一部耐人尋味也有很多地方值得討論的片子呢! 可惜的是我不再上 生死學與臨終關懷的課 要不這可是一部很棒的片子呢! 不過 放心啦 等DVD一出來我會收藏的
人生就是如此 特別是新年 我們常用恭喜發財 財源滾滾來 ...跟財 跟錢 跟名 跟利 有關的事祝福別人 而好多人終其一生所追求的也都是這些東西呢 很多人懷抱著很大很大的夢想 我也覺得人一定要有夢想 但是轉念一想 如果那個夢想只是為著實現某些自認為尚未實現的遺憾 那麼真的就很辛苦 看到故事中的女主角因為爸爸過世 然後就拼命的賺錢為的是要完成爸爸曾經想要開酒吧的夢想 心中有許許多多的感觸呢 不過很棒的事 最後她看清楚了 也覺察到 其實 爸爸什麼都不想要 他已經有他想要的 就是家人就是愛 因此她明智的決定開餐廳不再是她的夢想 因為比不過愛... That's so great... 因為這世界上有很多的人拼命的追求這些物質或是外在的東西 卻遺失了愛 到頭來 等到面對生死時真的是一場空呢
我不是職業病啦 這就是我的人生哲學一直沒有變過呢
哈哈 多說無益 有空時也去看看這部片吧 相信會有很多的想法喔
還有 新年快樂 情人節快樂 也謝謝諸位的電郵跟簡訊 收到了 但那些沒留名的人 下次記得留名啦 要不我真的無法猜出您是誰 因為又換了一支手機 還未把電話部完全上傳好 (有空時我會做啦)
願上帝繼續保守及祝福大家喔
於真敬上

影子
謝於真2010/2/7
只要有光的地方就會有影子

當光線越強離我們越近時，影子的顏色也就越深形狀也就越清楚


說得更明白點，任何的影子只不過是實體的投射所產生出來的形象

也許我們可以由影子推測出那個被投射的物體為何?


然而 影子終究是影子 常常會虛晃一場 吸引我們的目光 蓋過許多真實面呢
小時候 天真的我常常與影子賽跑 試圖追逐著影子

年紀漸長後發現 這世界上有許許多多的人 活在虛幻的影子中

當黑暗來臨 光線不在時 影子就無法產生

而那些靠著影子生活 或是不真實面對自己的人們

終有一天 因為影子不在而被迫面對真實的自己時

將會發現 過往的種種是多麼幼稚又可笑的事啊

有些人利用影子來訴說自己的可憐遭遇

也有些人善用影子來吸引目光甚至搏取同情

然而現在的我非常堅定 不再像年少時會隨著影子起舞

當有一天那個光在離我們最近的正上方時

影子自然而然不再顯現 而所有的事實跟真理也將呼之欲出呢

所以 影子啊影子 充其量您也不過是個被投射出的影像罷了

千萬別再寄望我 會追著您跑 或是對您有任何的反應或高度的期待呢

回家前的巧遇
謝於真
2010/1/30

週四(1/28)下班回家，就在快到家的路上，忽然有人從鐵板燒的店家衝出來對著我大叫『老師！老師』，我當時嚇了一大跳！想說是誰？回頭一看，忽然發現是『范范』范馨尹，她是明新老服系前年畢業的系友，目前正在榮總的高齡醫學中心當個管師。
其實，也真是奇妙，前些時候我在台大醫學院的公佈欄上看見范范的爸爸『范光勳』的名字，范范的爸爸是醫學院的大體老師，然後期末考那週不知為何才從其他同事口中聽說她在榮總工作，心理才正惦記著這個小瓜，結果卻在這樣的場合下巧遇！
范范在大四的時候修我的生死學與臨終關懷的課，課程進行到一半，因為他在課堂上實在恍神的厲害不知發生什麼事，我實在很想把她抓來談一談，瞭解一下狀況！一個週三的下午，我在教研室的外頭剛好遇見她，於是她跟我談了幾個問題，關於醫療關於爸爸的病，我那時終於恍然大悟為何她會恍神？也有點疑惑？因為范范的爸爸病危，可是不知為何她卻一直來上課，從不缺課？所以我就問了她一些問題，當然她也成為我優先掛號諮商的對象（因為當時要找我談的人實在多，所以真是要約時間也要排隊），在談過之後，才知道有些人竟然勸她『不要缺課，要好好的讀書，因為她的爸爸也會希望她好好的讀書…』我那時，心理想『天阿！這是什麼安慰人的方式？簡直是把人套在一個框框中，怎會有人隨便的勸一個正在面對至親的生命存亡生死關頭的人，要專注在其他的事上？？？讀書跟成績有那麼的重要嗎？＊＆＆︿︿％』於是，我幫范范釐清當時她所面對的問題，其實她雖來上課雖然待在學校中但是心中還是一直惦記著爸爸，既吃不下飯也睡不著！當天在會談之後，我們一起禱告為著她心中的不安，也為著爸爸的病，然後一起做了一些決定，我告訴她，不用來上課沒關係，因為心理一直惦記著爸爸所以還是回去醫院陪爸爸，至於其他老師的課，我會幫她處理，也請她去跟班導說一下，讓班導也去跟其他的老師也打一下招呼。後來我把手機的號碼留給她，要她隨時可以跟我保持聯絡，如果有需要幫忙時！
那一週我接到她的簡訊，它跟我說爸爸於清晨平靜的過世了，她很謝謝我告訴她也支持她回台北陪爸爸…她的爸爸過世後，我仍然一直陪伴她甚至參加爸爸的追思，因為范范的爸爸把大體捐出因此追思會是在台大醫學院舉辦的，還記得那是一個週三的下午，我們服務事業學院正在舉行尊嚴照顧與 創新服務研討會，每個老師都有分配到工作，而在下我的大教授哥哥正好也要來學校發表他的論文大作，所以原本是打算當天我跟哥哥只要開一部車到新竹就好，最後我放了哥哥鴿子，也把手上的工作暫轉給其它人然後到台大來參加范范爸爸的追思會！
週四和范范的巧遇，我問了她近況,也跟她說我在醫學院的佈告欄上有看見她爸爸的名字！她跟我說，她爸爸已經完成大體老師的任務將要火化，未來將會葬在法鼓山採用植葬的方式…還跟我提到不久前到醫學院見爸爸的最後一面，心中還是有些感觸…我跟她說：『這樣很正常阿！爸爸跟她那麼親，不思念不難過那才奇怪』於是我們就這樣很深入的談了許多的事，除了爸爸的事外最好玩的是她竟然一直跟我說謝謝，還說我教他們的那些評估方式還有技巧果真的很受用，很有幫助…。我那時只覺得好笑，因為他們那一屆選修A模組 長期照護管理的同學，就會上到我開的『健康評估與照護計畫』那門課，因為我們寶貝學生，實在年輕，在做任何事之前都不先搞清楚整體狀況，就馬上要去完成任務，所以他們當時上我的課真是哇哇叫！因為我忽然間變成『謝大刀』嚴厲的要求上課前要讀Papers然後要隨堂小考，結果一次，再沒有告知的情況下，我一上課就考試，當天的考卷全是英文出題A4紙的題目滿滿一張，全是申論跟情況題，限時20分完成，但是我在最後一題，寫上這份考卷不需回答，只需在背面寫上班級學號跟姓名便可，且只要答題一題不但不給分還倒扣10分…還真是震撼，特別對那些拼命回答的同學，那一個測驗全班只有兩個人的分數是正的，原因是因為遲到所以沒時間寫因此高分，幾乎全軍覆沒都是負的！很多人在課堂隨記上寫上忽然的考試真是心理超級不爽想要罵髒話，也覺得自己從來沒考過那麼低分，但是卻忽然明白在評估時，是評估一個人，所以必須從頭先看到尾而不是只是一昧的想要完成評估的動作而已…且評估前的解釋跟告知真是重要！哈哈！沒想到那時的震撼教育，現在竟然換來認同及感激的回饋！那屆之後我因為實在課太多，所以再也沒上過那堂課！不過到了台大來之後，我發現一件事，就是自己的堅持是對的！另外，生死學與臨終關懷的課並不是唸唸課本或是放放PPT就可以的，我雖然從不用教科書但也不是反對使用教科書啦！只是….！因為如果我們連在學校的生命教育都沒把關好都沒做好，那麼當這些人在生命上頭遇到難處時，遇到生死關頭時，將會花更多的時間在追尋一些不必要的治療與處置上，而忽略了可以好好陪伴與增進生活品質這塊，最慘的事，當自己的親人過世後，那個當時的決定將會讓自己在後悔與愧對中掙扎著，而哀傷的部份也將會比其他人來的長也更難處理呢！Agree?