Regret and Repent 後悔和悔改

the English will follow by Chinese
“後悔”(regret)和”悔改”(repent)這兩個字看起來似乎相似但卻不完全相同的。後悔 (regret)這個詞意旨對於我們所作或是來不及做的事感到遺憾或難過。但悔改(repent)這個詞的含義不僅是對我們這做過的某些壞的或錯誤的事感到抱歉，但有著更多的行動含義在裡頭，也就是我們希望做將錯誤的事情改成正確的,從此不再犯。




我是家中唯一的一個女孩。我小的時候,我爸爸真的非常愛我且在某些方面寵壞我。我一直記得，我在家裡就像是王后一樣，每個人都必須聽我的且要遵從我的旨意。



我和弟弟的關係非常好，也很親近。不過，我始終記得，他在初中時在他的週記寫道：他的姊姊是家中的女暴君。當我讀到那段話時,我心裡真的是很難過，當時，也確實感到很遺憾(regret)，我怎麼會這樣對待他。不過，那樣的感覺只是讓我暫時成為他的好姊姊但是卻不長久呢!



我的弟弟是個非常有才華的人他的智商也非常高。這件事已經發生超過20年喽!我還記得有一次他的學校成績真的很好，讓他從我的父母手中得到他夢寐以求的電視遊樂器任天堂。在那個年代，任天堂是一個非常昂貴並沒有真正流行的電視遊戲，因為不是每個家庭可以有額外的錢去買他。不過，我不知道為了什麼原因，我想當時我因該是很氣他也真的瘋了，所以我用剪刀把他的電視遊戲機的電線偷偷的切斷。那是他很珍惜的遊戲機，他當然非常沮喪，不開心，但很慘的事因為我是女暴君所以也不能對我做任何事情。



當我漸漸長大後，我忽然覺得，我是多麼糟糕，且真的很後悔我當時為什麼要這樣做,特別在我成為一個基督徒後這種抱歉的感覺更加強烈呢。在聖經裡其實是沒有後悔這個詞，上帝從不要我們只是後悔而已而是真的悔改。當然我現在沒有在對我弟弟做什麼壞事，也沒有拿剪刀再剪斷他的任何他的遊戲了。不過，我真的很感謝神改變我和我的生命還有我和弟弟間的關係。這個世界上除了上帝以外真的沒有任何其他的名稱力量，和愛可與耶穌基督的愛相提並論。如果沒有耶穌的愛，我想我可能無法成為一個好姐姐吧。當然，我想我還是不夠好，但是這是來自上帝的承諾。如果我們懺悔且願意悔改，他會原諒我們而耶穌基督的為我們定在十字架上所流的血會將我們的罪洗淨，使我們成為新造的人。我真的不知道在我弟的心中我有多麼的好或不好。不過，我相信一件事情，他將不會使用”暴君”這個詞來形容他的老姊。嘿，我親愛的弟弟，我真的很抱歉我曾經對你做了傷害你和你的玩具的事,但是我感謝上帝更新我們的關係讓我們可以更以更親近的方式珍惜對方。遺憾和後悔這是兩個不同的單詞在拼寫和意義上。各位看倌，我不知道您是否曾經有過後悔的感覺想要回到從前讓一切如新？今天，有一個好消息，那就是，神是愛。他非常非常的愛你希望你可以悔改，更貼近他，好讓祂的憐憫和恩典跟隨你。來吧! 向他開口跟祂禱告乞求相信你一定也會和我一樣經歷到祂其妙偉大的同在與奇事呢。


Regret and Repent                            2010/12/14Yu-Jen, Hsieh Singapore

The words “regret” and “repent” seem similar but not exactly the same if we look their definitions closely. The word regret means that to feel sad or sorry for something that we did or we did not do. However the meaning of the word repent is not only the meaning of feel sorry about something we did it bad or wrong but more in the actions that we want to make the wrong thing to be right.

I am the only  girl in my family. My dad really loved me very much and spoiled me in some ways when I was young. I always remember that I was just like the queen in the family that everyone in the family must listen to me and please whatever the things I wanted it to be.

My relationship with my younger brother is very good and we are really close to each other. However, I always remember that when he was in junior high school he wrote that I was a very bad and hated someone liked a Tyrant in the family. I was so sad to read and know what he wrote about me at that time and did really feel regret that how come I treated him in this way. However, the feeling of feel sorry just kept me for a while to be his goodie sister and buddy.

My younger brother is a very talent guy with very high IQ. More than 20 years ago, his school results were really good so that he earned a present of NINTENNO from my parents. At that time, Nintendo was a very expensive and not really popular TV game due to not every family could have extra money to effort it. However, I did not know in some reasons I was really mad about him and then I used the slicers to cut the wire of his treasure game. He was very depressed and upset about it but could not do anything with me. As I growing up, I realized that how bad I was and really regret about what I had done to him special when I became a Christian. There is not the word regret in the bible instead of the word repent. Of course I did not do anything bad to him and cut any of his games nowadays. However, I really thank God for changing me and renewing my life with my brother. There is no other name and power and love can be compared with Jesus. Without the love of Jesus I think I may not able to be a good sister to my brother. Yet, I am still not good enough however this is the promise from God. If we repent then He will forgive and the power of blood of Jesus Christ will wash over our sins and make us as new. I do not really know that how good I am in my brother’s mind now. However, I am sure one thing that he will never use the word tyrant to describe his only sister. Hey, my dear brother, I am really sorry from what I had done to you and your life however I thank God for renewing our relationships in the way closer and treasure each other.

Regret and repent these are two different words with spelling and meaning. My dear readers, I do not know if you ever repent instated of only regret? Today here is a good news for you that God is love. He loves you so much and wants you to be repented and closer to HIM so that His mercy and grace will follow you all the time. Come and talk to HIM. Surely you will experience how great He is as I do.








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2004年3月24日和班導生去養護中心的日誌

找到一些好玩的文章 這是我和我們班的同學一起去某養護中心當志工的紀錄呢 哇 好久沒有一起手牽著手禱告 但是感謝主 因為到如今 主都看顧我的學生們!


寫於2004年3月24日



上帝真的好神奇！好奇妙！ 當我開始把眼光轉回祂轉向祂的身上時，一切奇妙喜樂的事物又開始發生了！而那些原本讓我很煩甚至讓我覺得很沈重很討厭的事還有那個人對我而言就真的不那麼重要了！今天晚上上課時，學生問我『老師！你今天心情是不是很好？』我楞了一下，沒想到前一陣子我被這些屬世的事搞到焦頭爛額，甚至連回系上都覺得很沈重，而這群小瓜竟然也感受到那種不安的情緒，於是我笑笑的點點頭！原因沒有別的，因為我那群寶貝學生！



中午和我的班導生一群十多人到學校附近的養護中心，這原是學務處早早就安排的活動，可是我很意外的是參加的竟然全是我們班的學生！這一陣子我對他們可真是很感冒喔！他們先是在課堂上對其它的老師態度極差非常的不禮貌，又在我的班會課上頭對我當眾也是有情緒上的反應，雖然對象不是我是他們的學姐，但是我對於這種不分紅皂白為了反對而反對的行為實在很不以為然，可是上帝又要我們愛不可愛的人，所以對於他們我正處於極度的失望與矛盾中，但是真的是萬萬沒想到，上帝就是這麼的愛我們，為我們預備今日下午的時間讓我們真的體驗到神的愛和祂奇妙的作為！車子一路上開到目的地，到了養護中心之後，我們在門口集合，幾個有到過這個養護中心的學生，開始給大家行前說明為大家打預防針，啟程前我們臨時被告知要為這些心智有障礙的大小朋友帶活動，下車後又聽到說這些小朋友有些已經四十多歲但是心智年齡卻都只有幼稚園，會控制不住情緒常常尖叫或是會有些親密的動作會亂摸...全部的人因此更加緊張與焦慮不安，於是我叫住大家，我問他們說『好不好我們一起圍個圓圈手握起來一起來禱告』於是我們便在養護中心外頭禱告求上帝的愛澆灌我們並且賜我們智慧讓我們知道要如何帶活動如何跟他們玩在一起，並且用了那句主耶穌說你們坐在一個小弟兄身上的就是坐在我身上的經文！上帝真的好神奇，兩個多小時的活動雖然當中有銜接不上的冷場的時候，可是卻沒有小朋友發生上回祂們所經歷的負面經驗，不但如我們的禱告般很平安很喜樂，在當中還有好幾幕的畫面深深的感動著我們，當中有個大朋友（四十多歲）他雖然智商不高也五音不全可是卻很完整也不卻場的唱了『車站』那首歌，然後一個接著一個小朋友很盡情的唱著歌，當她們的歌身在我的耳邊響起時我的眼眶都紅了，學生們也是，最後我們放了音樂和她們一起跳舞收場....結束後他們很高興也很捨不得的和我們擊掌道別，再等待其他系上的勞教學生同時，我們步行參觀整座教養院，我跟學生們說『你們平時蹺課就算了，怎麼連舞都不會跳不會玩呢？...』沒想到他們忽然回答我說『因為很感動也很難過所以才會放不開』然後當我跟教官說完話往他們中間走過去時，沒想到大家盡然圍了個圓圈，有幾個人跟我說『老師快給我們ending』我不解的問什麼ending？不是結束了嗎？結果開始有人把手牽起來說要禱告要感謝上帝...我那時真的被他們嚇了一大跳，對阿要感謝上帝，於是我們再次一起禱告，我們求神來祝福這群院童也感謝神讓我們四肢健全更求神原諒我們的過犯....禱告一完那個叫老鼠差點被1/2的學生盡然對著我唱起『讚美主 哈利路亞』的詩歌，我當場也跟他一起唱一起做動作，我真的是好感謝上帝，雖然這個學生在課業上的表現不佳可是看見他今天在帶這些小朋友的活動時這麼盡情這麼投入，我真的是為他大大的感恩與讚美神！上帝真的好神奇，因為上學期是一個一個的學生來找我談來找我禱告可是這一陣子卻是一群又一群喔！且祂真的是聽禱告的神！真的靠人的愛是有限的，但是唯有上帝是那個永恆是那個永遠不離棄我們的神！所以當愛那些不可愛的，可愛的孩子已經夠多人愛了，可愛的孩子被別人愛是理所當然的，可是那些我們很頭痛的孩子原本就缺乏愛，如果我們再不愛他們那就真的可憐沒人愛了（但是還是有主耶穌愛）！感謝主！藉由今天下午發生的這些美麗的事提醒我也讓我們一群人不但是再次仰望主經歷主也大大的被這些院童的單純天真所感動喔！因此我們稱他們是上帝送來的小天使！



感謝主並將榮耀歸於真神！



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About the marriage 關於婚姻

English will follow by Chinese

婚姻對我而言是一種非常親密且神聖的關係，也是上帝所賜下的。這和我們中國人常說的『緣份』其實有著異曲同工之妙呢!


前幾天,姐姐小公主在我回家吃晚餐時,忽然很認真的看著我然後跟我說:「姑姑! 我好愛你喔!」我回她：「我也好愛你啊!」 「因為我好愛你所以我要送你一樣非常珍貴的禮物」她一邊說著一邊拿出紙和彩色筆,開始塗鴉起來! 通常我對於她的作品是喜愛的不得了,因為她大概有遺傳到我們藝術的天份,她的圖真是會讓我們會心一笑呢!可是那天她畫了一位新娘送給我,給我時還特別交代說:「這是很美的新娘喔!」哇!收到後心裡還真是….覺得很特別啦!因為他老是愛畫些好玩的東西給我,這還是第一次畫新娘送我呢! 接著我發現這美麗的新娘手中沒有捧花,於是我要她加一束花上去,她一開始時拒絕我,很認真的跟我說:「不可以啦! 她還沒跟新郎結婚不可以拿花」嘿嘿! 最後她不但畫了花還著了很棒的顏色呢!那幅畫現在被貼在她專屬的藝術牆上展示著,改天我再把它照下來,放上來供大家觀賞。


曾經有人跟我討論關於婚姻的問題或是想法。我要先聲明的是1.我的性向正常2.我也不是一定不婚啦! 只是多數的時候,我都不會很正面的回應或是回答這個問題。原因很簡單,我覺得目前的我真的還沒準備好要進入這樣的關係中。而且,事實上我嗎! 童心還未泯再來就是我其實也有點害怕婚姻。原因是從小到大在我們偉大的家族中看見奶奶、媽媽、嬸嬸、伯母、嬸婆…等為了家庭如此的犧牲奉獻一輩子，我覺得她們完全被這個家綁住了，而我知道自己不可能那樣也不想那樣，更害怕那樣呢!因此我是有害怕在的！雖然,她們看起來很幸福也很偉大但是我真的是佩服那些已經為人婦的堂姊妹或是嫁進來的嫂嫂們、弟妹們呢! 哈哈!至於會不會結婚,這個問題也沒有絕對的答案啦! 因為信了上帝後,一切都在祂的手上所以我最好不要隨便斷言喔! 這樣的答案,看官你滿意嗎? (不滿意也沒辦法)。

For me the word “Marriage” is a kind of very close and holy relationship what is given by God. Chinese people would like to state Yuan as a relationship by God in lots of occasions. I think in some way it may link to Christianity.

Few days ago, my little niece Esther told me that she loved me very much therefore she was going to give me a very pleasure gift. Then she started to draw something on a paper for me. She said “this was my gift for you because of I love you.” I was very happy to get whatever she drew to me. But this one was really made me feel quite special and different. Guess what she drew? She drew a very beautiful bride (I should take the picture and post it here later) for me. However, that bride was not holding the flowers in the 1st place. Therefore, I asked her to draw a bundle of flower on it. She replied “No” at first and said that the bride did not get marry yet so she couldn’t have flower on her hands. Well, in the end she added the flower in and colored it then posted on her artworks wall where is the wall for her to show any of her pictures at home.

Someone did really share or discuss something or ideas about marriage with me. Well, most of times I would be very quiet or say not thing. However, the truth is that I am not ready for this kind of relationship. It’s not because of I am not believe in marriage. I do open my mind about marriage for sure. However, it’s some kind of fears to me. I saw my mom and grandmother and so many aunties/ grand aunties who really devote most of their lives in Hsieh’s/Shieh’s family. I just do not want to live like that. It’s really a kind of fears. I mean their marriages were/are very normal and some people may think that’s harmony. However, I just cannot sacrifice my life like they do/did. They seemed very great and must be honored. But that’s never the way I want for my life. So, hello who! Are you happy with this answer?

Lemon Venus Orange

English will follow by Chinese
小公主姊姊跟我說她在學校吃了橘子,橘子實在好好吃! 我聽了之後有點狐疑原因是她其實是喜歡吃柳丁。為了確認她是不是分不清柳丁跟橘子，我測試了她一下,後來發現她在學校吃的是柳丁。小公主姐姐在接受訓練後已經可以分得清楚柳丁和橘子的不同。於是晚餐後我請她表演一下她的最新絕技到廚房拿顆橘子出來!嘿嘿 老師教的好!她當然拿對了啊! 這時在旁邊的妹妹看見眾人對姐姐的讚美也想要被測試! 於是我請她去廚房拿柳丁! 阿嬤怕她不知道還問了她一下,沒想到他很有把握的說”好!我知道了“ 卻拿了一顆….檸檬…很高興的回來!為了鼓勵她我們只好跟她說很棒但是這是檸檬不是柳丁啦!再去拿一次,這次她待在廚房很久…正當我們猜她該不會拿胡蘿蔔出來時,這時她又很高興的跑了出來,還大喊我找到了! 結果這次她…她…竟然抱著她的奶粉跑出來! 喔!我的天啊! 小公主妹妹 你 你 可真是搞不清楚狀況啊!



Esther told me that she ate mandarin at school and that’s really yummy. I was so surprise about it. Because of oranges suppose to be her favorite fruit. Therefore, I asked her to figure out the differences between mandarin and orange. In the end, she told me that she did not eat the mandarin at school. She ate orange. Tonight, after dinner I asked her to pick up a mandarin for me. She learned very fast and picked the right one for me. Her younger sister Rebecca was also waiting for us to assign her to pick up something. Therefore, I asked Rebecca picked up one orange for me. Rebecca was very happy and ran very fast to kitchen to pick up the orange. My mom asked her that if she knew which was orange. She replied “ yes, I knew”….then back with a lemon. So we told her that’s good but it’s lemon. She went to kitchen again….and came back with ????? her milk powder…. Oh! My God, Rebecca you are really funny!

When I am old 當我老時 Julianne, Hsieh

English will follow by Chinese
當我老時

我永遠記得,修我老人護理這堂課的學生,總是會被我問到一個問題：”想想看,當您老的時候你會是什麼樣子?” 這是個很有趣的問題! 重點在於每個人都必須把他們老的時候畫出來! 當然這也是個沒有正確答案的題目。每次在進行這個活動時,總是會聽到一堆人很憂鬱的 “啊” 了出來! 但是很有趣的是多數了人的表情真是動人也很享受畫畫的時刻呢!

嘿嘿! 其時我可以向一般傳統的老師一樣,只需站在那觀察這些小瓜的動作就好了,可是別忘了我是誰? 我是謝於真耶! 是個頑皮擁有童心的澳客~ 我怎麼可呢就這樣放過這大好的機會跟他們一起玩呢? 於是我也畫了一張畫。

還記得我有好幾年所畫的內容都是” 我和我的另一半在第三世界的某個國家宣教,我們住在大草原的帳篷中沒有很好的物質享受但是每天都過得很喜樂… 一直到老的時候都是這樣…” 哇! 我想我那些寶貝學生們當時也許很受不了我因為我開口閉口還有滿腦子都是和耶穌相關的事呢!

事實上,那雖然只是一張圖畫而已,但是卻是我和神之間的約定! 我從來沒有忘記上帝對我的呼召,這真的很難解釋呢! 不知該如何說,但是相信只要正在讀這篇文章的您也像我一般經歷到主耶穌的愛跟奇妙的大能,您就會明白,這我開口閉口的上帝事多麼的真實啊! 也更能明白為什麼我會這樣了! 哇! 經歷上帝的同在一點都不難呢! 您只要向祂開口祈求,祂不會讓您失望的! 因為在信的,凡事都能!

I always remember that there was a question that I asked most of my students to answer in the Geriatric Nursing class. I asked them to image what will they be when they are old? This was the question with open answering which meant there were no such as “right” or “wrong” answers. However, they had to answer it by drawing a picture in a piece of paper what provided by me.



Well, most of students would feel depressed with the sound “ah~” when they were required to draw something on paper. However, it was interesting to see the enjoyment of drawing from their face expression. They did really enjoy and like that part of class. As a lecturer in the class, I could just do not thing and only commanded them to fulfill of my missions as a traditional teacher. But, who am I? I am Julianne the one with youthful heart! Therefore, I also joined the drawing with them.

There was a picture that I drew for many years. I drew that my husband and I who seemed to be a missionary in some 3rd world countries for our mission works. We were staying in the tent in the natural environment and there was the joyfulness full our daily lives. I think my students might think that I was out of my mind due to there was all about the Jesus in my thoughts and conversations.


In fact, although there was only a picture but it’s a very important deal for me. I never forgot my calling from God. It’s very hard to explain about it. However, once when you experience HIM you will know how true HE is and why I am like this. It’s really simple to experience Jesus in our lives. What we have to do it’s just inviting HIM into our lives and whatever we ask surely HE will answer. Everything is possible by faith with Jesus.

Best friends 最好的朋友

The English will follow by Chinese

最好的朋友到底是像什麼樣呢？曾經有人形容“最好的朋友是那些能夠分享一切的人。”不過，我認為最好的朋友是無論我們正在做什麼事,她/他都可以理解，且使用任何一種方式支持我們。我不得不說我是一個很幸福的人，因為身旁有著一群支持我的人。



我有一群非常好的朋友也是我在大學教書時的同事。我們沒有相同信仰的宗教，但在我們的教育事業的觀點上有著共同的熱情。大多數人可能會認為我們一定共享同樣的想法，並且一定認同彼此。然而，我們卻常常在會議中為著不同的觀點爭辯著。我們並不會因為我們是好朋友就一定同意對方的所有意見,反而常常在會議中掙得面紅耳赤，但出了會議室後仍然是很棒的合作夥伴特別在其他人需要幫助的時候。這聽起來很奇怪，怎麼有可能和那些不同意我們意見的人成為最好的朋友。

嗯，這是一個非常好的討論問題。我可以說的是，只有在一個情況下讓我們可以保持這樣很棒且和諧的關係。這個秘密就是我們尊重別人的想法，並願意開放我們的心胸去接受那些和我們不同的聲音。另一方面，我認為最重要的關鍵是，我們有同樣的熱情和樂於奉獻最好的一部分特別是在我們對待我們的學生時。我必須說，我們每個人真的都是非常不同的和獨特的。我們用不同的方法來教書，並通過我們的知識和人生哲學來影響我們的學生，再來就是我們常常互相交流、分享並且相互學習。

兩年前，我決定離開這個團隊，為著我的夢想與更美好的未來。我的未來在上帝的手，我將會做的事情，一定是祂要我做的。但是，我從來沒有忘記這一群好朋友。作為一個好的朋友中的一份子，我知道，無論他們將面臨什麼或是處在什麼樣的環境中,他們總是會相互支持的。雖然，我已經不是團隊的一部分了，但是我總是在我的禱告中紀念他們每一個人。因為我知道，只要是我關心的任何一個人那愛我的神也關心，就像上帝祝福我保守我一樣,祂一定也會保守祝福他們。最重要的是，他們是我們系上的金鑰因為通過他們多學生的生命就能被照亮這麼。嘿，我親愛的朋友們，我愛你們。

(等我回國後,聖誕節前出來聚一聚吧!)


What would be a best friend like? Someone ever described “a best friend is who can share everything with.” However, I think that as a best friend she/he can understand whatever we are doing and support us in any kinds of way. I have to say that I am a very blessing person with a lots of supports from people who surrounding me.




There were a group of best friends who were also my colleagues in the University. We do not have the same faith in the religions but share the same passion in the perspectives of our educational career.



Most of people might think that we shared the same ideas and would agree with one another. However, we did argue all the times during our faculty meetings with different points of view. We argued, disagreed with the ideas which were not convinced us in the meetings but still work as great partners when others needs help. It sounds very strange that how can people who did not always agree with us can be our best friends.



Well, it is a really good issue to discuss with. However, there is only on one circumstance for us to maintain the great relationships. The secret is that we respect other people’s ideas and willing to open our minds for the opposites. On the other hand, I think the most important key issue would be that we had the same passion and willing to devote the best part of us to our students.

I have to say that each one of us is really different and unique. We used different methods to teach and pass our knowledge and philosophy of life to the students we meet and also learn from one another.



Two years ago, I decided to leave this team for the better vision in the future. My future is upon to God’s hand and I will do the things what HE wants me to do. However, I never forget this group of best friends. As a best friend, I know that no matter what they are facing or doing they will always be fine and support each other. Although, I am not part of the team anymore but I do always keep them in my prayers. Because of I know that whatever I cares the one who love me (God) also cares, and surely HE will bless them as HE blesses me. The most important thing is that they are the keys who can light up so many students’ lives.

Hey, my dear friends, I love you all.

整理生命The process with life review

English will fllow by Chinese


整理生命


“生死學”是我在大學教書時最喜歡的其中一堂課。其實我的專業是老年失智症，它和這主題扯不上沒有任何關係。我從不認我自己是這方面的專家。因此，我總是在課程的一開始時告訴我的學生，這將是我們有生之年要不斷學習的功課。我不會告訴你們要如何處理這個問題，但我們將在探索，反思，分享中相互學習。當然另外一個讓我很享受這堂課的原因是我看見學生的成長。



這兩年我已經做了很多關於自我的生命探索與整理。我認為這對我來說真的很重要，幫助我很多也讓我看到，我們的神是多麼的偉大。這也是一種來自上帝的醫治喔! 尤其當我真正面對我正在處理的問題，並願意讓神來動工的時候。這真的讓我更加的能夠去探索自己，了解自己。


這幾天一件有趣的事是打到了我。那年出國之前，曾經有一個人要求我讓我留在台灣 ...不過，我最後決定去澳大利亞學習。終於這持續了4-5年的遠距離關係還是結束了，那一年我還真是淒慘,先是我最親愛的祖父在我飛回到澳大利亞時去世,再來就是研究所的課業壓力當然還有最慘的分手事件。對我來說，那簡直是悲慘的一年因為 我不得不一個人在異鄉面對我的研究學習的壓力，失去我親愛的爺爺，然後甩了我的男朋友的慘重課題。我從來沒有機會審查正在發生的事情與我在那個時候。不過，我還是很感謝上帝。因為也是在那年，我見到了我的乾媽，還有認識了很多可以成為終生的好朋友。最重要的是這一年，我接受基督為我個人的救主在。事實上，沒有人能明白我和前男友的關係是怎麼回事。在家裡也沒有一個人，因為知道我們分手了而再提過他。前幾天，我媽媽突然喃喃自語說，我的前男友可能已經有幾個孩子等等等等... ...。

嗯，我當時沒有任何的回答。我把分手這事當做那是在神的計劃中和祝福。然而，從我媽而來的這問題真的有打到我，“如果有人在我出國前希望我留下來那我會怎麼回答他呢？”我的乾媽說，我應該放棄我的學習留下來，如果這個人是上帝安排的…。後來我才意識到她為何為這樣說，這是因為美國實在離她太遠了，且她覺得我不年輕了。那麼什麼又會是我的回答這個問題的答案呢？任何人都可以來猜一猜吧！猜對了有獎! 嘿嘿嘿


公佈答案: 答案是會先問一下為什麼要留下來 搞清楚發生什麼事(澄清) 接下來試聽他好好說 (傾聽) 然後 我會很謝謝那個人 謝謝他那麼重視我 (道謝) 接著 很重要就是一起禱告吧! 嘿嘿嘿 除非上帝有其他的安排 要不我是不會改變的! 無關乎夢想 原因是一切都是起因於神! (好像在處理安寧的個案厚)








The process with life review



One of my favor subjects what I taught in the University was the subject named “Life and Death”. In fact my major is Dementia care and it’s not really related with anything of this subject. Therefore, I always told my students in a very beginning class that this would be the subject that we are going to learn through our lifetime. I am not the master of it but what we are going to do with this subject will be exploring, reflecting, sharing, and learning from one another.



These two years I had done a lot of works with the reviewing of my personal life. I think it’s really important for me and helping me a lot to see that how great our God is. It’s also a kind of healing from God when I really face the issues I was dealing and willing to let God work in it. It really helped me to explore myself and understood myself better.



These few days a funny thing was up to my mind. That year before I went overseas for my undergraduate study a guy who I was dating with asked me to stay in Taiwan… However, my decision was going to Australia to study. In the end the long distant relationship finally end up at the year my grandfather passed away on the time I flied back to Australia. That was really a tuff year for me. I had to face the stress about my post-graduate study and losing of my dear grandfather then broke up with my boy friend.



I never had chance to review what’s going on with me at that time. However, I still very thank God for everything. That was also the year I met my godmother and many lifelong friends. The most important thing was that I accepted Christ as my personal savior at that year.



In fact, no one could understand that what’s going on with our relationships. No one at home even mentioned about him since we broke up. Last few days, my mom suddenly muttering by herself and said that my ex may have few children already…blah blah …



Well, I did not reply any words about it. I took that was under God’s plan and blessings. However, the question from my mom did really hit me “if someone asks me to stay again before I go overseas what will I response to him?” My godmother said that I should give up my study and staying if that is the one from God. Later on I realized that she was saying so because that USA is far far away from her and she thought that I am not young anymore. Well what is my answer to this question? Anyone can have a guess with it!

The genius student 天才學生

The genius student 天才學生


(中文在英文之後) 2010/11/01 Yu-Jen



I went for a student gathering this Sunday afternoon. That was really a good time for us to meet and was a very first time since they graduated from university. It’s really good to see some of them are happiness with harmony at their families with the children.

There was a very genius student who was found with fever. She was staying in Yi-Lan where is far far away from Shin-Zu. Therefore, I suggested her to take panadol for her fever before she reach home to see a doctor. She rejected my proposal due to allergy to those painkillers. I was quiet queries about the allergy and painkillers because this was the very first time I heard that someone allergy to panadol. Anyway, we respected her decision of not taking panadol.

There was something up during our conversations while the car was reaching to Taipei city. I asked her how if there was no clinic open for her illness on Sunday? The genius replied “ it’s ok for me. I am going to have some Fu-Mao- Zer-IN (Pandol allergy sinus caplets)…” that was really shocked us who were on the same car with her while she said it. In the end, her classmate told her that the caplets she was going to take which contain with panadol its self and vit C…. So, Miss OOX are you sure you are allergy to Panadol? Ha ha ha.



這個周日下午去參加睽違已久的同學會。這是我的班導生們,畢業四年的第一次同學會也是唯一的一次。當中見到許久不見的她們有男友的有男友,有小朋友的有小朋友…看見他們一個個幸福甜蜜的生活著,真是為他們感到高興。

聚會快結束前,有個天才被發現發燒了！因為她住在宜蘭實在很遠,因此我問她再回家看醫師前要不要先吃顆普拿疼退燒? 她跟我們說:「不不不! 我會對止痛藥過敏…」我其實是第一次聽說有人對普拿疼過敏,因此雖然很狐疑還是尊重她。

當車子快到台北時,我們忽然想到周日晚上診所應該沒開門,那他要怎麼辦? 這時,天才大小姐的她,竟然不急不徐的安慰我們說:「沒關係啊! 我回家喝杯伏冒熱飲就好了…」哈哈哈! 這話一出真是讓同車的我們都傻住了! 於是做在她旁邊的同學忍不住跟她說:『你確定可以喝伏冒熱飲嗎?』她很正經的點點頭! 接下來 聽到的是 “難道你不知道伏冒熱飲就是普拿疼加維他命C….”喔喔喔! OOX小姐! 所以你真的對普拿疼過敏嗎?

The juicy news about a child and an elderly on the Bus 公車上的八卦新聞-老人與小孩

The juicy news about a child and an elderly on the Bus 公車上的八卦新聞-老人與小孩


大部分來台灣旅遊的朋友都會告訴我，當他們回到自己的國家時 ，他們會一定會想念台灣的八卦新聞時。嗯，我不知道怎麼評論我們台灣的新聞環境和它真正的問題。但是新聞自由向來是許多台灣人感到非常自豪的一件事，因為它代表著我們的國家在一定程度上是被意義為自由的民主的。然而，從教育的觀點看問題，我認為我們的媒體需要付出大量的社會責任。而看新聞的人也需要接受訓練，成為一個聰明人的觀看者。

這條關於一位年約10 歲小朋友與老人家在公車上為了位子而大聲吵架的新聞報導，真正震撼我的不是孩子和老人間的爭執，而是新聞之後接踵而來的批判跟負面情緒。新聞說這個小學生把他的袋子放在身旁的位置上而老人家把袋子移開放到地上引起孩子的不滿於是兩造產生爭執…最後記者給了一個結論是小學生謾罵老人家。

該則新聞並沒有完整的呈現當時，老人如何把孩子的袋子放在車上的地板上，但是卻誘導觀眾”現在的小朋友不尊敬長輩” 且引發出大量的不良情緒反應。我很驚訝因為我周圍的一些人也參加這場戰爭在搞不清楚狀況下就開始回應這篇新聞甚至批判呢! 事實上,這一則新聞並沒有真正給予我們足夠的客觀信息和真相。然而，大多數人只看到了一部分的故事，就以非常公義的姿態加入評述。



我一直記得不久前一個我在去國立台灣大學附屬醫院開會的公車上發生了一件好玩的事。一位上了年紀的人上了公車上，他看到公共汽車上充滿了人，也沒有人讓位讓他坐。他於是很憤怒也很生氣，特別當他看到有人比他更年輕並且佔領了一個座位不讓座。於是，開始對司機抱怨，並說他將投訴司機沒有要求其他乘客讓座給老人。他甚至說，美國比台灣尊重老人 ...。等等等等...我試圖跟這位老人家溝通。而公車司機也為此向我致謝， 謝謝我同理他也幫助他處理這些問題。然而，老人下車後，真的震驚我們的是那個年輕人。當那青年人，從她的座位站起來準備下車時，很明顯的看得出來她是長短腳的肢障人士。

昨晚我和我媽分享這個故事後，我媽媽也分享了一個發生在她身上的故事。她說，有一次他身體極不舒服到醫院就診，回家時坐在公共汽車上的座位上。這時身旁站者一位老人家,在一般狀下媽媽是會讓位的！可是那一天身體真的極為不適覺得自己快暈倒了，於是沒有讓座（我媽那時血紅素不足有貧血的現象而我在澳洲所以無法陪她就醫）。 這時,一位穿著慈濟制服的志工非常正義且理直氣壯在不明白前因後果下，公然的在公車上大聲的指責我媽媽沒有讓位是做錯事，….。當然，我媽沒有給予任何回應。

這實在是非常的有趣，我們總是常常很急的要快速的回應甚或評論一件事，卻常常不看清楚或是搞清楚狀況呢!聖經說，快快的聽，慢慢的說話，慢慢的生氣。這真是非常的重要。智者沉默是金不隨便發言,愚昧者卻常常容易受到周遭的人事物煽動而馬上有言語及情緒上的反應喔。

PS 我當然不覺得那孩子是對的,只是我們在教育孩子的同時也需教育老人啊! 如果當時老人尊重一下孩子不倚老賣老覺得他最大也許孩子也不會生氣,甚至可以對孩子有個良好的教育示範呢！而這則新聞如果在報導時可以把正向的事跟見解說出來也極具教育意義呢! 而不是引發出一堆負面的情緒但是卻沒有真的建言，只是讓觀眾知道說小孩子會跟老人吵架卻未給任何的建樹,讓老人、小孩或是社會大眾知道該如何做才不會有類似事情發生呢！

Most of friends told me that they would miss the juicy news in Taiwan when they back to their own countries. Well, I do not know how to comment the news environment and the real issue regarding to it in Taiwan. Many Taiwanese are very proud of it as it states we are a liberty country in a sense of freedoms. However, from the perspectives in the educational viewing point, I think the media need to pay lots of responsibilities in our society. People who watch the news also need to be trained as a wise man for feedbacks.



The news reported that an aged 10 child who was shouting and arguing with an elderly on the bus due to the encapable issue of the priority seats. The child was sitting on the bus and placed his school bag on the empty seat next to him. The male elderly drag this child’s bag from the seat to the floor without asking and sat next to the child. The child was so angry about the behavior from that elderly. Therefore, they shout to each other. The video did not present that how the elderly put the child’s bag on the bus floor but only shows that how they argued. In the end of this story, the news reporter stated and concluded that the child did not respect of elderly… and it inducing lots of bad emotions from the news watchers. I was quite surprise due to some of people around me were also join the war of “youths seem not respect the elders nowadays.”


This news did not really give us the enough information of how the argument started. However, most of people only saw the part of the stories and feedback it with very rouse words and judgments.


I always remember that was one story happened on my way to National Taiwan University hospital. An elderly person was on the bus and he saw the bus was full of people and there was no vacancy in priority seats for him to sit. He was so anger about it because he saw someone who looked younger than him and occupied a seat. Therefore, he complained it to the bus driver and stated that he was going to mail the bus company due to the poor service about the seat matters. He even stated that American was so great in respecting of elderly than Taiwan…. Blah blah... I tried to feedback to that elderly with peace. The bus driver was giving thanks to me for helping him to deal with the issues. However, after the elderly got off from the bus, some picture was really shocked us. The youth got off from her seat and while she was walking we recognized that she was a disability person whose legs were injures with different length. I shared this story to my mom after that news while I heard my dad was giving comment about the poor education for children nowadays. My mom was feedback me her story about it after listening to my story. She said that she went to hospital for seeing a doctor and was seating on the bus after that. She was quite uncomfortable and really could not give up her seat to an elderly next to her. A religious lady from chu-zi (a very famous Buddhist organization) acted very righteous and pointed that my mom did the wrong thing of not gave the seat to the elder people on the way home… my mom said that she was willing to give the seat to the elderly who in needs with the good health conditions. However, that lady seemed very righteous without knowing the true story and humiliation my mom in public was really made her very uncomfortable. Of course, my mom did not reply any words to that lady.

This is very interesting that we always like to pass our comments and opinions in a very fresh and quick way. However, bible says that be quick in hearing, slow in words, slow to get angry. It’s very important to be a wise man for responding the news and things around us than be a very talkative fool who just pass the words and feelings without self controlled.

Face 面對

Face 面對






有許多年我非常投入我的工作、教會生活還有每年兩次3-4個月的新加坡生活。 寒暑假時我總是會離開台灣到新加坡去，原因除了那裡有我的另一個家(新加坡媽媽我的乾媽的家)外,其實就是想要真的休息，暫時離開台灣這個有許多界線不清的環境中。 也許在華人的文化中界線不清已是常態, 但回國這麼多年我還是不能適應的很好。常常在放假時總是會接到跟工作相關的電話,也不是那麼急的事,但是就是非得打壞一個好的心情,所以人在放假心卻掛著工作,而工作時又不禁想著下一個假期何時才會來…。這實在是一個非常糟糕的惡性循環呢!



很多人都以為那些在我們放假時還會打電話耳提面命我們關於工作的事的人，是非常負責任的人。而我卻認為,這些人其實是患了大頭症過度的負責。說的比較委婉一點是他們真的好會替我們著想也很負責任。可是時間一久，你將會發現其實他們是一點都不負責任呢。打電話的目的不是為了解決問題，而是想把責任撇清然後又多方的傳達他/她 做了多少不得了的事情,多麼的辛苦….。把自己宣揚的多偉大多不得了, 好像這世界沒有了她/他 就無法運轉呢! 然後更可悲了是,這些人常常又利用這樣的機會踩在我們的頭上，目的只是為了爬到一個更好的位子。 聖經上說,日光之下沒有新事。我常常為這樣的人感到可憐！他們也許看似會爬得比我們快一點或是得到某些好處, 可是很妙的是這樣的人常常也會在我們都想像不到的情況下而垮台呢!日光下沒有新事發生,這些事將會不斷的在我們的生命中上演,而這樣的人我們也會不斷的遇到呢! 所以最好的妙招是真實的面對自我, 並且尋求神的指引跟幫助, 然後你將會有意想不到的收穫喔!
For many years, I was quite enjoyed my lives in works, church and another family in Singapore. In fact, I went to Singapore every half a year during my university holidays were because of I needed some kinds of released from Taiwan. There are many ambiguous boundaries in Chinese culture. For example, while I am off from work I may get the call from the office for some thinly matters which is not really emergency. Therefore it becomes a bad circle in between works and holidays. It always needs to be aware for office’s phone calls during the holidays while I really need a break and also cannot stop in thinking of the next holidays while I am working. However, go overseas will always be the best way to avoid this kind of situations. That because of people may know that they cannot reach you by phone so they will only e mails you when the things seem to be important.



I always believe that this world will not stop because of anyone of us. As bible says that everything happens under the sun and there is no new thing under sun. There are some people who seem responsible for works and always try to call others who are in holidays for some kinds of working stuffs they think it’s very important. However, I named these over-responsible people as “big-headed”. They use to performance themselves as very royalty in their job and try to tell others that how hard they work for. In the end, you might find out that because of she/ he wants to step up for claiming up in the better positions. So that, she/ he try to announce that how great she/ he is but never pay any attention about the truth or dealing with any problems. I really feel pity of this kind of persons. They may once get the great position however failure in that position as fast as we cannot image. There is no new thing under sun. So, face our true selves and ask God for guiding, you will find that is really full of peace and wonderful things.

中秋節BBQ趣談 The funny things tonight (Moon cake Festival)

今天晚上以為會有很多家人跟親戚一起BBQ 最後只有我們家兩個小公主,好玩的是姊姊打電話邀她的小堂姊結果堂姊未到 她睡著了...而我們家大哥趕場參加學生的BBQ回家前打電話問說要買什麼?託他買包棉花糖要烤給小朋友吃...天阿 竟然買了兩包........QQ軟糖....119的救護車差點來家裡把我跟大嫂帶走....最妙的是 教授大人 竟然還很正經的跟我們說 我買兩種口味 小孩子吃這個好 .....哎呀呀 (the English one will be the following one) 不過還好是買糖 不是買 棉花回來 ...昏倒 謝家的男生真是要訓練一下...

Moon cake Festival is a very big family day in Taiwan. We used to BBQ with friends or family together. The funny things were happened tonight. Esther forgot to invite her cousins as a result she called them to come over...but she fell to a sleep before they came and woke up when they were preparing to go home.. The most funny part was my elder brother. He went out for BBQ with his students. He called us and asked if he could help to buy something back...then we asked him to buy a pack of marshmallow for BBQ.. Opps! guess what he bought for us? He was very happy to get the children 2 packs of QQ soft candy.... My sis in law and me nearly faint about it.... thanks God unless he got the candy not other thing else..otherwise we were sent to hospital by 911's ambulance....This is our outstanding male in Hsieh's/Shieh's family...nearly almost men are like this in the family I guess!

陪伴Accompany

這是我非常喜歡的作品之一。在創作這些書籤時,其實我並沒有先設想要做什麼,只是先把那些印滿不同語言的"愛"字紙片,隨意亂剪 然後在用火將這些小紙片的邊緣燒一下。完成之後我就隨意的把他們貼在名片大小的卡片上,然後在根據當下看到卡片的感覺隨意創作! 一開始時我其實不知道要把這張書籤做什什麼樣子,可是就是很奇妙當我完成時,就變成了兩個坐在一起的人的背影。我把他命名為"陪伴" 原因是我有一群年輕時代陪伴著我的好友們! 大家都是從不同國家來的但是卻在一起做了很都有趣的事一起度過很多人生的高潮跟低谷呢!雖然我們無法常常見面或是連絡但是那些美好時光真是令我記憶猶新。




我不知道你是否也曾有這樣和你在一起陪伴你經歷人生某些重要時刻的朋友?如果有就請好好的珍惜那份友情吧! 如果沒有也不要太沮喪喔! 因為上帝應許我們 祂總不撇下也不離棄我們! 所以試著來到神的家中 到教會來享受這份從神而來的"愛的團契"吧! 相信你也會經歷到上帝在我們身上很奇妙的愛與作為呢!

This is one of my favorite bookmakers. I do enjoy in creating them by my bare hands. I burned the side of the paper first then stuck it to somewhere on the card which with the usual size of business card. After that, I just drew the image from the expression of that paper with unplanned sharps. I got no idea about this piece of paper at first. Somehow I finished it as two people they are side by side sitting together after I started my first line on it. There must be many times that we were not alone to deal with our lives issues whatever it’s sadness, happiness, or joyfulness. It’s really so great to have someone who accompany us in the moments we needed. I have a group of friends who are from different countries but we shared our lives overseas during our young ages. We might not contact each other or see others so often. However, I always remember those warmth and happiness moments with them. That’s the word “accompany” meant. So, is there anyone who accompany with you in anything else? If you do, then please treasure those moments with her/him. If there is no one who can share the life with you do not feel depressed about it. There is the one who promise us He will always be with us and never forsake neither leave us. He is Jesus. So, come and talk to Jesus and for sure you will experience about His unbelievable works on us!

耶和華沙龍Jehovah- Shalom

耶和華沙龍意指"主是平安"! 在這個世上有很多的宗教都將平安是為宗教的精神及重點之一, 然而真正的平安只有一種! 在我還沒認識耶穌之前我總以為平安就是指凡事很順利或是快樂。然而在認識主之後,我發現我雖然還是需要面對許多的困難,經歷許多的挫折,還有面對許多不是很好相處甚至處處找我麻煩的人,可是在那些過程中我卻每次都能安然度過且全身而退。那就是真正的平安! 也是上帝對我們的祝福,因為主就是平安所以凡是信靠祂的雖在暴風雨中還是有平安在,因為我們深知在暴風雨中為我們掌舵的是神自己不是別人!

耶和華沙龍 -主是平安! 願您平安!

 “Jehovah- Shalom” is the meaning of The Lord is peace. Many of religions like to state “Peace” as the key spiritual portion in the faith they believed. However, there is only one peace what are differ and different from the peace from mankind in this world. I thought that peace was the meaning of we felt good and happy before I knew Christ. However, the real peace from God, on the other hand sated as God Himself is peace, is really different. We may still face the difficulties from this world, those uneasy circumstances in our lives, and those not easygoing people around us. However, we surely have peace and strength to deal and know how to go for our next step as this is the promise from God. 

耶和華路以Jehovah- Raah

謝妹妹跟我說她喜歡斑馬 (她明明就喜歡小豬豬) 所以我就畫了一隻小斑馬給他鑑賞一下. 這張書簽的字"耶和華路以"是指主是我牧者,這正好和我最喜歡的詩篇23篇互相呼應呢!是阿這一生當中有上帝當我們的牧者真是一大祝福呢! 最棒的是這世界上只有神的愛是無條件的,我們雖然禱告但是卻不需要做任何償還呢!

Rebecca asked me to draw a zebra for her. I asked her "why?" She replied that she liked it. Therefore, I drew it for her. The calligraphy words "Jehovah- Raah" are stand as the Lord is my shepherd. It has been recalled with Psalms 23 and it's one of my favorite Psalms. Ya, It's really good to have Lord to guide us so that we do not need to worry too much because there will always be someone (Jesus) who loves us with unconditional love.

只要信凡事都能Everything is possible with the faith in God.

這張小卡的背景是著名的法國巴黎艾菲爾鐵塔, 小鳥其實是小型的禽鳥,可是我卻刻意的把它畫的跟巴黎鐵塔一樣高,原因是因為 在神沒有難成的事!正如書籤上的經文只要信凡事都能! 我不知道您是否曾經經歷過上帝其妙偉大的回應跟大能呢? 我到目前為止已經經歷過無數次的神奇事情!真的,實在好奇妙! 所以別再猶豫了啦! 試一試, 只要信 您將會和我一樣經歷到很神奇的平安跟恩典喔!
The background of this card is the famous tourist attraction "La Tour Eiffel" where is located at Paris. The bird I drew is a kind of smaller avain. I purposely drew it with the high similar to the La Tour Eiffel. It's all because of the wo⋯⋯rds from Jesus in Mark chapter 9 verse 23. "Jesus said, “Everything is possible for him who believes." I do not know if you ever experience about God's amazing answers and powers? However, it's so true that everything is possible with God. So just believe Him and you will on a path full of mercy and grace.

Funny Esther 搞笑小公主姐姐

Esther went to church with me. I asked her must be quiet during the service time. She promised that she would read her book and would not bother me. After we set down she started to read her story book “The story about Sun Bo” with loudly voice. I reminded her with the gesture of quiet. She nodded and was really quiet. Esther was pulling my clothes when the time pastor asked all people closed the eyes and prayed. So I opened my eyes and asked her why? She replied me with the gesture “quiet” and spoke to me in a very funny tone “ be quiet oh. Because people here were sleeping..” wow, then many people were disturbing by her and could not stop to laugh. My dears, they were not sleeping. They just closed the eyes and prayed lah….




小公主姊姊跟我去教會,去之前我們約法三章 我跟她說不能吵喔! 她說好， 她會自己讀書不會吵我! 然後帶著一本叫做小黑桑波的故事書去。 結果，當我正在聽牧師講道時， 她竟然真的在讀書 (大聲的念出 小黑桑波的故事 ...) 後來我制止他 並且跟她比 噓 安靜的手勢! 結果， 好笑的在後面！ 忽然牧師說一起低頭禱告。 當我正禱告時，姐姐拉拉我的手，並且比出噓不要吵的手勢! 當我正想稱讚她時,她卻很不小聲的說：『姑姑！ 噓~ 不能吵喔！ 因為後面的人都睡著了…』 結果是”笑翻 一堆正在禱告的人! 姊姊! 人家是閉眼禱告耶！ 又不是在睡覺… 無言以對的姑姑!

Pic-幫阿嬤綁完頭髮後 得意的笑容 she was so happy to design grand mom's hair style

Marking Paper 改考卷

Marking Paper 改考卷


My cousin and his wife were so busy for their business in China; therefore, I was visiting their children (my nephew Jerry and niece Angela) once a week. One day, Angela asked me about my job as a teacher. She said that she would like to be a teacher in the future. I was so surprised about her dream. So I asked her what is the matter make her want to be a teacher? Jerry and she replied me that because of there must be funs to mark paper with red color pens. As a result, I made a deal with them in helps for marking paper in the end of the semester.

Of course I did not let them mark the papers; I finished my marking paper job in the first stage and asked them to double check my markers. Jerry was quiet enjoy this job and he smile all the time. An hour later, we finished our jobs. Jerry looked so satisfied with it. Therefore, I asked him “Jerry, why you smiled all the time?” He answered me” Gu-Gu (Auntie) your students were so stupid!” I replied “why?” He said” They must not study hard, so they had these kind of bad results…. Worse than mine for many times…”



去年我的堂弟和弟妹都忙著在大陸出差,因此我最少每一週去他們家探望他們的小孩 哥哥Jerry和 妹妹 Angela. 有一次 妹妹忽然跟我說:「姑姑 我長大也要當老師」我聽了之後很訝異 反問她 「為什麼」她跟哥哥 七嘴八舌的說：『當老師很好玩 因為可以用紅筆改考卷…』於是我跟她們約定期末考時他們可以幫忙我改考卷！學期末時,我把考卷改好成績也算好了,但是為了遵守約定 所以我還是請他們兩個幫忙算考卷上的題目有多少答對的題數跟答錯的…從來沒有看過哥哥那麼有興趣過, 他一邊算一邊微笑一副很有成就感樣…考卷的成績算完後 (其實他們也複習了數學) 小三 的哥哥一臉得意樣 欲言又止…所以我開口問他『哥哥 你在笑什麼』 沒想到他回答我說 『大姑姑 你的學生很笨耶』我不解的問『為什麼?』他說『他們一定很不用功 考得那麼差 比我還糟糕』哈哈哈 真是童言童語阿 不過我也無法跟他解釋 那個考試成績只占一小部分啦 且我早就算好 也加過分了 要不他一定更覺得這些大學生實在是….

pic 1 Esther and JerryPic 2 Angela and Esther

Rebecca's funny words 童言童語

Rebecca is the cutest one in my family. She presented herself as the cutest and beautiful Mei-mei princess. One day, I was playing with her and she murmured some words I could not understand. So I was so wondering about it... In the end I used cantonese to tell her that " I can't understand' sounds like I am not a dog in Chinese. So she nodded. I found her action about this cantonese was so funny so I kept to ask her " Rebecca, can you talk in cantonese?" ( "can you talk" in cantonese sounds like are you a dog in Chinese) she was feedback me with a sorrow face expression so quick with the Chinese words " not a dog! I am not a dog"... ha ha ha so I tried to explain to her about the meaning of that Cantonese, the result is she still insist that she is not a dog... (pls see her pic in my file) by the way she is only 2 years old.

妹妹是我們家最搞笑的小朋友 她才兩歲多 她說她是最美麗且可愛的妹妹小公主 但是我卻覺得她真是有姑姑我的遺傳好笑的不得了 前些時後 我在家陪她玩 她說了一些我聽不懂的話 於是為了要逗她 我用廣東話跟她說 " 我不識聽也不識講" 結果沒想到她竟然微笑的點點頭, 好玩極了 所以為了測試她 姑姑我 就用了廣東話問她 "你識不識講" 沒想到她很急的搖頭並且用哭音回我" 不識講" 我心裡正訝異她竟然會說廣東話時, 這時她的下一句是 " 我不是狗啦 不是狗..."留下姑姑我三條線 .....哈哈哈

十架的路 The Path with God

十架的路 The Path with God


This article will write in Chinese follow by English version.



十架的路是一條什麼樣的路

沒有金銀 沒有財寶

但卻有滿滿的喜樂



十架的路是一條什麼樣的路

沒有昂貴的跑車和華麗的房屋

但卻有奇妙的恩典和無限的祝福



十架的路是一條富足的路

帶領人走出黑暗迎向光明

十架的路是一條祝福的路

當下不明白 日後卻結出平安的果子

喔 十架的道路是神為我預備的路

十架的道路是我一生將走之路



這是我在今年一月份時有感而發寫的一篇小短文。還記得那一天我在醫院的走廊上看到一位正在哭泣的婦人,她哭的好傷心。於是我走近她的身旁問她發生何事?原來是她在為她的先生辦理住院手續的時候,她的先生忽然過世了。後來經過深入了解，原來她和她的先生是宣教士。 他們從遙遠的國度來到台灣在醫院中幫助那些困苦的、貧乏的、傷心的人，不但把自己的財物都獻給這塊土地的人最後甚至連生命都獻上。

這個宣教士沒有任何的保險經濟也真是困難呢！我當時其實薪水很少，少的不可思議,但是當下被感動做了一個決定把口袋中僅有的大鈔500元拿出來,給了那個宣教士的太太。我跟她說:「雖然這錢不多但是多少有幫助且是上帝要給她的」然後我們互相擁抱，後來她跟我分享了許多關於他們在醫院服侍的事, 在離開前我為她做了一個禱告,並且告訴她說：「感謝上帝,因為有一天我們在天家還會再見面且我相信上帝過去如何使用她的先生,在他死後還是會繼續使用他為主做見證…」。直到現在我都還記得那位宣教士的太太在禱告過後破涕為笑的面容呢！

這個宣教士讓我有很深的感動跟想法,有些人也許會覺得這些為主奉獻一生的人真是蠢到極點,把錢拿出來就算了,你看,連死了喪葬費都拿不出來…可是卻給了我很大的激勵,是阿!十架的道路看似沒有金銀財寶但是卻有滿滿的平安與恩典存在,而這也是我這一生要追尋的道路呢!



The Path with God



The path with God is without a lot of money and property but full of joyfulness.

The path with God is without those luxury cars and expensive houses but fulfill with lots of amazing graces and blessings.



The path with God is a way leads people from the darkness to the hopefulness. It is also the only way for bearing the fruits with mercy and peace.

People may not agree or seem to understand about the path with God. However, this is the way God is calling me to walk with. It’s also the way God is preparing for me. For now on I will follow the path with God and walk in it with Him during my life time.



This note above was written around January this year. I always remember that day with a story of a missionary’s death. I saw a lady who was crying badly somewhere around the hospital’s corridor. I was so queries about what’s up to that lady, therefore, I walked closer to her and asked if she needed help indeed. She shared with me that her husband just passed away while she was away for helping him to register for hospitalized. During the conversation with her, I discovered that her husband and she were both missionaries overseas to Taiwan. They spent the rest of time and money in hospitals for those patients and their families in needs. The missionary was sold out all the money to Taiwan just for devoting God’s loves to those strangers he never knew before. In the end, he even devoted his own life here.

People may think that they were so foolish to give up their better lives in their own country to Taiwan. The most pathetic thing was the missionary dead even without any cents for his funeral. However, I know that’s not true. I was so encouraged and touched by what they did to my people here. I gave what I had in my pocket (not really a big sum) to the missionary’s wife and prayed with her together. In the end of our prayer, she gave me a big smile and we comforted each other by hugging and knowing that the missionary was in Heaven with God and was going to be used by God even he passed away.

Yes, it seems silly to give up everything and following Jesus. However, the path with God is full of amazing graces and joyfulness what is really different from this world. And the words of this bookmarker is not only remaining me about that missionary’s story but also telling me that how great for Jesus die and paid His life to all of us.

Rejoice 歡呼

英文的“rejoice ”是一個動詞意指快樂。它使我想起我的已故的祖母。我的阿嬤是一位受日本教育美麗且優雅的淑女。她和我的祖父是因為我的大伯公(我爺爺的大哥)當媒人而結婚的。但是 最令人不可思議的是我的姑婆 也就是爺爺的妹妹竟是是我祖母的同班同學。我其實還真不明白，為什麼有人可以不用談戀愛就結婚。不過，我永遠記得,在婚姻生活中 我的阿嬤總是微笑的面對她所面臨的任何困難。



她的晚年因著阿公過世及癌症而受了不少苦。雖然，她其實很理解她的健康狀況，但仍在我們面前表現出很堅強的模樣。很多人也許不明白，為什麼她要在我們面前故做堅強。不過，因為我是和阿嬤很親近的孫女，因此我可以理解，這完全是出自於她對我們的愛，她只是想鼓勵我們 ,不讓我們擔心。


她在世的最後一句話是台語的三個"好"用以回答牧師的三個問題。我永遠記得那一天，牧師和從教堂來的兄弟姐妹來到她的床邊探望她. 牧師問她是否願意耶穌幫助她,減輕她的痛苦並且和她在一起? 她彷彿用盡全身的元氣回答說，好 她想耶穌幫助她，安慰她，並與她起一起。在那之後阿嬤陷入很長的昏迷然後就離開這個世界了。對我而言 阿嬤只是暫時的離開 這張書籤做完後我忽然很想阿嬤 。 而書籤中可愛的熊讓我聯想到，現在她一定在天上和耶穌一起唱歌和跳舞。而且，有一天，我將會再見到她且和她一起在哪裡歡呼呢。

"Rejoice" is a verb to define as an action of joyful or happy. It reminds me about my late grandmother. My grandmother was a delicate and elegant lady. She was educated with Japaness background and was wed with my grandfather by a matchmaker. Her matchmaker was my grandpa's eldest brother. The most incredible thing was my grand auntie who was my grand father's younger sister was my grandmother's classmate. I really did not understand that why people were married without falling in love with others. However, I always remember that my grandmother always smile to those difficulties whatever she was facing in her marrige life.

She was suffering with cancer during her later live. That was the moment I closed to her in deepth. Although, she was very understanding about her health condition but still remained as faithfulness in believing that she would be cured in front of us. People may not understand that why she wanted to do it. However, as I was the very closed grand child to her, I could understand that due to her devoted love to us she just wanted to cheer us up.


Her last words in this earth were three yes for answering pastor's three questions while the pastor with a group of sisters and brothers from church came to her bedside to visit her. I always remember that day when she replied that yes she wanted Jesus to help her , comfort her and be with her. This bookmarker with the word rejoice just comfirmed me that my grandmother is now in heaven singing and dancing with Jesus. And, yes one day I will meet her and join her for rejoicing.

I know who holds tomorrow 我知誰掌管明天

"I know who holds tomorrow" is one of my favorite hymns. It starts with "I don't know about tomorrow, I just live from day to day. I don't borrow from its sunshine,For its skies may turn to gray. Many things about tomorrow, I don't seem to understand;But I know who holds tomorrow, And I know who holds my hand.....". Yes, there may have lot of things happened tomorrow but whatever the things are, God will always be the path with us.



Ostrich is one kind of animal what to be represented as someone who does not face the difficulties and just put the head underground as if he can't see anything else then the bad things will not happen. Well, that's really a misunderstanding for this big bird. However, the point of the way for ostrich face the problems makes me get different ideas about it.   I think ostrich is the most humble and faithful big bird in the world. It may because it knows who holds tomorrow and who is going to help it. As those calligraphy words "I don't worry about tomorrow" in this bookmarker, yes there is not thing to worry. God will lead our way and will hold our hands.Wow, this may be a gift for someone who just made a deal with me. he he he







"我知誰掌管明天"是我很喜歡的一首聖詩 中文的歌詞是這樣的:"我不知明天將如何，每一天只為主活，我不借明天的陽光，因明天或不晴朗，我不要為將來憂慮，因我信主的應許，我今天要與主同行，因祂知前面路程。有許多未來的事情，我現在不能識透，但我知誰掌管明天，我也知誰牽我手。...."是的，明天有可能會發生很多我們無法參透的事情，但不管發生什麼事情，我相信上帝都將永遠與我們同在。



鴕鳥常被誤解為一種不願面對困難逃避現實的動物，有趣的是,我們常認為鴕鳥在遇到危機時，只是會將頭埋在地下，好像一旦牠什麼都看不到,那麼壞的事情就不會發生。雖然這實在是對鴕鳥的一大誤解。然而，如果從這一個點來看鴕鳥面對問題的方式，我認為鴕鳥是世界上最謙卑，最有信心的大鳥。這可能是因為牠知道那創造牠的掌管明天，且會幫助它喔。



這個書籤上的這些書法字是篆體的“我不為明天憂慮“! 真的,我們不需要為明天憂煩,因為我相信不管發生何事上帝都會牽著我們的手和我們一同度過。哇，這張書籤也許會成為剛和我達成某種協議的...金小姐的禮物喔! 哈哈哈

My new art work

看到這張有草做背景的小卡片讓我昨晚一直想到SARS時我最愛的是詩篇23篇於是昨晚就一直想要在卡片上弄一隻羊上去,今天下午休息時 終於忍不住製作了這半成品,不過這張是要給自己的喔!

This card has green background with pastures. It reminds me about the verses from Psalms 23 what was my favorite part from bible during the SARS period while I was hospitalised. I started to make this card as a bookmarker in my mind last night. Finally, I made it during the rest time. My work on this bookmarker is not finishing yet. Also, this is the bookmarker belong to me..will not be released to others. he he he...

God sent icecream- my favor NZ icecream

中文請連結下面網址

It's a story how I got the icecream to eat with mom Lindy. We went to Sir buliding to extent my visiting visa in Singapore. On the way along the long& bor ing waiting line I just saw an officer who⋯⋯ looked like a star named Hsieh, Chou Huang but was handsomer than him. So I was betting with my god mother while there was only 5 people in front of me that if I was served by that handsome sir. Well, due to it's so called betting, so there must be the reward for the winner. Mom said that if I was served by that No. 38 counter then she would treat me a NZ icecream which I favored the most. However, if I lost then I shoud keep fit and on diet. As a christian of course, I could use the only way and works all the times' method to win the bet. I prayed for it. Wow, that's so excited while I was the front one for calling. I might go to either counter 43 or 38. So I kept my prayers in my mind. Bingo! In the end I was in counter 38 and served by that officer. People was queries about my shout of joy while I was calling to that counter. 3 days later, mom took me for that icecream. I had the 3 scoops one. See, God cares all our needs and prayers even the smallest thing like this. I know that when ever we pray He will answer. I do not know what God is going to answer and give to you. However, I believe that prayers can make things possible. So try to pray in Jesus's name and you will experience what I had.



This was the story translated from my blog on year 2006



http://juliannehsieh.blogspot.com/2006/09/by-yu-jen-hsieh-new-zealand-ice-cream.html

Bookmarker

This is a gift (bookmarker) which I made for one of sisters in church. I just knew her. She was baptised 2 weeks ago. The big calligraphy word is "Love" in Chinese. The small one says "there is no fear in Love" and which is from 1 John 4:18 in bible. Thanks God for this card because it let us has some ideas about the expansion of new⋯⋯ church buliding. Our care group is going to make some of cards for rising the money in church's founding.


這是一份禮物（書籤），我親手做來送給一位2個星期前剛洗禮的姊妹。那句愛裡沒有懼怕是來自於聖經約翰一書 4:18。感謝上帝給我靈感做這張卡片，因為它讓我們有一些想法。我們的小組將會做出一些卡片義賣用來幫助教會建堂. 且這義賣會很有趣會跟我每年包給學生的糖果形式有點像..敬請期待..
PS這書籤後面有磁鐵可直接黏在書上,然後那書遷中的那顆心的字 是不同語言的愛 是我用火燒出來的喔 很有趣吧 另外今年聖誕節 需要小禮物的請預約 嘿嘿嘿 因為我打算不包糖果還有寫小卡片 所以謝神算 今年要休息一下 

Recovery 恢復

Recovery 恢復

Uncle Wilson was very close to my family when I was young. He treated my brothers and me as his own children. We were visiting lots of Taiwan’s sceneries by his car during our school holidays in the childhood. However, there was a while he did not visit us due to some of quarrels with my father. That was also named ‘The Uncle Wilson’s embarrassing period’ for us. I think we both would feel so awkward to meet each other at that time. That’s a very strange feeling of us even we were not the one who quarreled with him. Many years later, the iced -war between him and my father was stopped in silence after grandmother’s death. Therefore, my family’s relationship with him was in the process of being recovery. Nowadays we renamed our relationships with Uncle Wilson as ‘the grace period of honeymoon’.

Few days ago, Uncle Wilson visited us after his business trip in south of Taiwan. Surely we got some great fresh farmed harvests from him. Moreover, we also had great conversations in remembering our childhood with him. It’s really a treasure for having the opportunity to be closed to him again.

I always remember there was a while I was really terrified and misunderstood about Christianity specially when those of people came to me and pointed out that I had sin against God. It’s true that we may feel sad when people come to us and confirm that we are sinners even we do not against the law and think we are innocent.

Bible says that the original sin from our ancestors Adam and Eve had blocked the close relationship from us to God. It just likes the situation of Uncle Wilson and my family. My brothers and I did not do anything to fence the relationship with Uncle Wilson. It’s not our faults but we were burdening from it. Thanks God that we are so blessing to reveal the relationship with Uncle Wilson. But the most grateful thing is that God is love. He sent Jesus to die for our sins and reveal our personal relationship with Him. I really thanks God for given me the opportunity in Knowing Jesus and be His favor friend. It’s true that God never promise that we won’t have to go through the difficult times in our lives but He promised that He will always be with us and never forsake us.

Let’s pray. Dear Lord, thanks for sending your only son Jesus to die for our sins. Also, thanks for renew our lives with you. We know that there may have some moments we feel uneasy and anguish to deal with. But your promises will never fail and your unconditional love will always upon to us. Thank You Lord. In Lord and Jesus name we pray. Amen!


威爾遜叔叔是我們童年時很親近的一位長輩。他對我和哥哥及弟弟如同自己的孩子。小時候我們常因為他開車帶我們出遊而參觀了很多台灣的風景名勝。不過，有一段時間他和我的父親意見不合因此漸漸疏離我們。我們都形容那段時間為'威爾遜叔叔的尷尬時期'。特別是當我們互相見面時都感覺很彆扭。這真是一個非常奇怪的感覺，因為不是我們和他意見不和阿。許多年以後，他和我父親的冷戰漸漸在祖母去世後被化解了。因此，我們和他的關係也在這個過程中被恢復。現在我們重新命名我們與威爾遜叔叔的關係為'恩典蜜月期'。

數天前，威爾遜叔叔去南台灣出差後，帶了一些在地土產來家中給我們打牙祭。除此之外，我們和他之間也談了許多的童年往事呢。能夠有機會再次和他親近實在是很值得珍惜與感恩。

我一直記得有一段時間，我真的很害怕和基督徒對談。那時我還為信耶穌甚至對於基督教有著很深的誤解。特別當這些人來找我，指出我已經得罪神。哇! 自己既不犯法也沒做錯事卻被冠上罪人的封號實在是非常不舒服呢!

聖經說，我們的罪原自於我們的祖先亞當與夏娃。因為他們的關係，阻撓了上帝和我們的親密關係。而這其實和威爾遜叔叔及我們家的尷尬情況有點類似呢。我和我哥還有我弟，並沒有做任何事欄阻和與威爾遜叔叔的親近關係。我們的關係之所以僵化一點都不是我們這些小孩的錯誤呢，但我們卻需要承擔後果。不過很感謝上帝，是如此的關係祝福威爾遜叔叔與我們讓我們的關係得以恢復。但最感恩的是，上帝無條件的愛。祂差派祂的獨生愛子耶穌來為我們的罪付上死亡的代價，為的是讓我們有機會與祂和好。我真感謝上帝讓我有機會認識耶穌，並且成為耶穌的好朋友。

這是真的，上帝從來沒有應許天色常藍，但祂承諾，祂將永遠與我們同在，永不離棄我們。 你相信嗎?

讓我們一起禱告。親愛的主，感謝你差派你的獨生愛子耶穌為我們的罪而死。也謝謝您重新更新我們的生命。我們知道，可能有一些時刻，我們將會感到不安和經歷痛苦。但你承諾永不離棄我們也不撇下我們，你的無條件的愛也將永遠與我們同在。主阿! 真是謝謝你! 奉耶穌的名求，阿門！

Focusing 聚焦

Focusing

I was invited to a care group. That was nearly the first time to meet others in the group. There was a ice-break leading us to the meeting. The leader guided us to a game which I named it 'opposite' in English. This was how the game being played. Every one could choose a number between 1-5 and spoke it out. However, there was a gesture for these 5 numbers. Normally, we would use forefinger to present for number 1 and that was the common body language around the world. As this was the game called 'opposite' we had to speak and act the number in the different combination. For example, I might said 1 but act my sign language other then 1. So that when I saying 1 I could act number 2, 3, 4, or 5.



It's not really a easy job but full of funs.We tried to play it in the first run. After the first run, someone responded to me that I was so relax in this game and not easy to be confused by others. Well, it's not really true. In fact, I might be one of the senior in age in the group, therefor, it's not a easy game for older people like me. However, to succeed in participating in this game would be a challenge for me. As a result, 'Focusing' was the only thing that I could perform. Thus, I shared that how I did it to pass this game to the entire group.This game was really interesting and it remained me something else.



Most of times we would like to deal with life issues without focusing. We used to have a lot of plans but always being dis-attraction by something else which might not be really so co-related to our issues. Focusing is the great way to help us in concentrating of gains.This is just as same as how we respose to our faith. Sometimes the miracles were surrounding us but we could not see it. It was becasue of most of times we were focusing on the wrong places or points.

Be focused and only focus upon Jesus. Surely, it will lead us in the path to meet Jesus and experience in HIS unconditional love to us.



Let us pray. Lord, thank you for helping us to know you and to be your friend. Yes, sometimes we pray but out of focus on you. Please help us to focus only upon you, so that we can experience your presence and love in us. In Lord and Jesus name we pray. Amen!



wow, it sounds I am a preacher. ha ha



聚焦



我被邀請參加一個小組。這是第一次參加的一個小組。小組一開始領導者引導我們玩了一個破冰遊戲，我把它命名為'口是心非'。遊戲是這樣的 ,每個人可以選擇 1-5之間的數字，講了出來。不過，必須比出和這 5個數字不同的手勢。通常，我們會用一根手指比出數字 1，這也是通用的世界身體語言。但是這遊戲之所以被叫做口是心非意旨我們想的和做的是不同的。舉例來說，我可能說1但是我不可以比出1。所以，當我說1時我可以比1以外的 2，3，4或5的手勢。



這並不是一個簡單的遊戲，但充滿了樂趣。我們試著玩。玩了第一次後，有人跟我說，我看起來很輕鬆都不會被混淆。嗯，這不是真的。事實上，對於我這個老人家來說其實一點都不簡單。但是，要成功地參加這場比賽將是一個挑戰。因此，'聚焦'(專注)是我唯一可以做的。因此，我和小組的成員分享其實玩遊戲時我並不管其他人說甚麼只是專注在我所要比跟說的答案上。



這遊戲真的很有趣，且讓我學到別的東西。大多數的時候，我們想處理生活上所遭遇的問題但是卻沒有抓到重點。我們曾經有過很多計劃，但總是一些不相關的問題分散注意力。對焦(專注)其實是一種很棒的方式來幫助我們集中精神邁向成功。這也和我們如何回應我們的信仰一樣。有時其實奇蹟是圍繞我們，但我們卻無法看到它。這是因為大多數的時候，我們都集中在錯誤的地方或點。



專注，單單的專注在耶穌身上。這樣不但會引導我們經歷耶穌奇妙的恩典，也能享受到神在我們身上無條件的愛。



讓我們一起禱告。主啊，感謝你幫助我們讓我們認識你且和你你成為朋友。是的，有時我們雖然禱告卻無法專注。請幫助我們專注讓我們單單仰望你，使我們能夠經歷道您奇妙偉大的愛和大能。奉主耶穌的名祈求，阿們！

哇，寫完之後怎覺得自己有點想是傳道人-牧師。哈哈

Pride and Inferiority 驕傲和自卑

Most of people like to compare the words ' proud and confidence' in relation of stages. It's very common to hear that there is only one line between proud and confidence. I have to admit that once I was very confused by those kind of definitions or explainations. I even tried to join the debates and figure out what was the real line across them.

For many years moved by I still not quite sure about the real line between them. However, I do figure out something else between Pride and Inferiority (self-abased). For many times I did claim that I am the person who do not like to bother others. It's very important to be a independent woman in this era. However, it's very ture for us to declaim something that may mark us high or build our self esteem in some better way we prefers.
These years I found out that Pride and Inferiority are usually co-related in some ways. I remember that there was many times I forgot my money and purse at home during the working days in University. I really do not know how to ask people for borrowing money. As a result, I might not have anything to eat during the luch or dinner time. However, there was once I forgot my money home and my car was just run out of petrol oil. I really need to ask someone for helps otherwise I could not go home. It's really funny moment for me. I really did not know how to do with it. As a christian, I prayed before I went out for asking.
But what I prayed was that if I could find out some bucks from my office. Ha ha, God did humanise me in searching out $10. So in the end, I went to my next door and asked Chiu-Chin for money. Well, that was not really so difficult to do it. I just did not know that how I could not ask for help. It seemed I was popular and easy going with my colleagues among my department. But I just could not speak out about my needs in time. Few days ago, similar situation happened to one of our friends, I did question her why she never asked for help? She gave me the answers which was " she dare not bother others". Finally I got the picture of myself and understand for it. It was our weak ness confidence induced our prides for asking help. It's really not a big deal to ask indeed. We may afraid being rejected by other, however, if we do not ask how can we know the results? Agree?

大多數人喜歡比較'驕傲和自信心'這兩字的不同。我們常聽到，這兩者只有一條線之間。我必須承認，有一段時間我對於這兩個字的定義感到非常困惑。我甚至試著想找出在兩者之間真正的線為何。
多年來，我仍然不太清楚了他們之間的那條線為何。不過，我確發現傲慢與自卑之間（自卑）有著微妙的關係。對於許多時候，我都說自己不喜歡打擾別人。而在這個時代成為一位獨立的女子是非常重要的。然而，非常真實的 這些我們所宣稱的東西可能意味著我們以我們喜歡的方式所塑造建立的高自尊
。
這些年來我發現，通常傲慢與自卑兼有一定的相關聯合作有關。我記得有很多次我去學校教書時我忘了我的錢和錢包在家裡。我真的不知道如開口向別人借錢。因此，我可能就常常沒有吃，午餐或晚餐。不過，有一次我又忘了帶錢，我的車汽油也用完了。我那次真的一定要別人的幫助，否則我不能回家。對我而言這真是有趣的時刻。我真的不知道怎該如何開口。作為一個基督徒，上帝永遠是我們的幫助所以我只好先開口祈禱。
但我祈禱的是，如果我能從我的辦公室找到一些錢。哈哈，上帝還真是幽了我一默!讓我搜索出10元。所以最後，我只能去隔壁像久秦開口借錢。嗯，後來發現開口借錢一點也不難。我只是不知道，我怎麼能這樣的堅持不尋求幫助苦了自己。我其實在學校中人緣很好但我就是無法在需要的時間內說出我的需要。
數天前，類似的情況發生在我們的一個朋友身上，她不是來借錢! 我當時也問她為什麼從來沒有找我們幫助？她給我的回答是：“她不想打擾別人。
哈哈”後來我忽然間恍然大悟和了解。這是我們的薄弱的自信心誘導出我們的嬌傲好讓我們不開口要求幫助。但是其實開口請求幫忙實在不是一大難事呢。也許我們會害怕被拒絕，但另一方面，如果我們不問，如何才能知道結果？同意嗎？

Myth

People say to me 'that's impossible to achieve', ' that's a most difficult way to go.', 'I believe that you can do it if you work hard, but even for me I know that I can't do it'... For some points of view, I am sure that they do really care and love me. But I am who I am. I know that I may not be the most intelligent guy in this world but I have God with me. Everything is possible with God. So God help me and lift me up to the place you main me to be. So that people will know and admit You are God. Oh, God! Please lead me to the path with the blessings from gracious love and soften heart.

有人對我說'這不可能實現'，'這是一個最困難的路。'，'我相信你能做到，如果你努力的話，但即使是我，我知道我也無法達成'。 ..對於這些人的忠告，從某些地方我相信他們真的關心和愛護我。但我知道且很清楚的明白我是誰。也許我不是這世上最聰明最有智慧的傢伙，但我有上帝和我在一起。在神沒有難成的事。所以上帝啊 請 幫助我，指引我到你要我去的地方
於是，人們便可以知道且承認你是神。哦，上帝！請帶我走那一條充滿你的愛與柔軟的心的祝福道路吧!

A conversation with wise professor (Chinese Version)和老教授的對話 (中文精華版)

前些時候為了一些事其實心情很受影響呢!特別當遇到依些有理說不清嘴巴特別厲害之人...反正就是一肚子的不可思議,真不敢相信這事上怎會有這樣子的人出現呢! 某天去找教授,教授真的是老老師不是我這種年輕老師所可以比擬的!教授似乎看穿我的心事,他語重心長的跟我說"學會一個好的做事態度很重要,因為一個好的態度會影響我們一輩子,做事的態度不對到頭來只會傷害自己..."我當下立馬反射性的回應"可是,他們不是只有傷害自己阿,也傷害身旁的人"教授笑了一笑跟我說"對!沒錯!這些人只會在那一刻會是那一天造成我們的不舒服但是卻永遠無法影響我們的人生" 我還是很不解,我跟教授說"我的心中還是有很多的疑惑在 也許要到了你的年紀時才會豁然開朗!"老教授笑而不答的送我離開她的辦公室!
那天回家的路上,我一邊走路一邊品嘗老教授的一番話,忽然之間豁然開朗"是阿! 這些人只會造成我們一時的不快 但卻在我們的生命中沒有任何影響呢!"
我的第一堂課總是花了不少時間再談態度 因為態度的確是決定我們人生的高度呢! 而那些態度對我們不佳或是處事的態度有問題的人只能祝福他們讓上帝在他們的身上做為吧!
同意嗎?

A conversation with wise professor 和老教授的對話 By Julianne Yu- Jen, Hsieh 謝於真

中文版請至谷歌翻譯 或是敬請期待


I was quite confident with my teaching job for many years till I met one group of very unbelievable people. Of course they were not my students but the same generation. It’s really like a nightmare to work and deal with them but for sure I really gained a lot from them.
One day I was really peace off for something and it induced those really bad emotions. However, God sent me the wise professor for releasing my confusing and doubts. I was so unbelievable that how come there are some people who seem talkative and work hard by mouth but actually doing nothing. The most intolerant part for me it’s that this kind of people got a lot of free time to create the problems and stepped others.
Professor Wise is one of the seniors among my career who I respect as a role model. I was murmur to her about my angers among those people. In the end of our business, she told me that “…a good attitude is always helped us to do the right things all the time, and it would lead us to success. Those who were not doing the things with right attitudes might be leading to the failure and it would harm themselves…” I was not really agree with Professor Wise at that time, so I replied “No, I thought them were not only hurt themselves but others.” “Yes, those people might give us hard times but never has anything to deal with our lives. They might let us have a very bad mood but only that day not all our lives. See.” Professor Wise replied me back.
I was full of question marks while I left Professor Wise’s office. Suddenly I realized the point of that conversation and totally agreed with Professor Wise during the time on the way home. Yes, she was quite right. Those people might only give us a very un-pleasure moment but not at all. How wise the Professor Wise was!

People we meet in the working place 職場上的兩種人 謝於真

Two kinds of people in our working places. One is doing for job another one is doing for PR (public relationships). The job as a target person is always busy for doing and fulfill his/her duty in the work. The PR as the 1st priorty person is also busy by talking about how hard he/ she is doing the works.
I never know how to deal with those PR people. Sometimes I am really anguish by them, but nowadays I learned to let go and let God taking control of whole situation. It seems my EQ has been improved. But the truth is I totally give them up.
I do know which kind of people you are but I know that I am not a person who is very good in doing things by mouth.

在我們的工作場所有兩種人。一種是做事的人另一是做公關（公共關係）的人。以做事為工作目標的人總是忙著做事，完成他/她的工作職責。而以公關作為第一優先次序的人也很忙 總是忙著談論他/她如何努力的做工作。
我從來不知道如何處理那些動嘴的公關人員。有時我真的覺得遇到他們很痛苦，但現在我學會了放手，讓神來控制整個局勢。有趣的是我的情緒智商看似得到了改進。但事實是我完全放棄這樣的人。
我不知道你是哪種人但是我知道我不是那種用嘴吧做事的

破繭而出

有好長的時間沒有在部落格上寫寫文章 寫寫我的想法 我 沒有閉關啦 是因為上一個工作 有太多的東西要面對 六個月的時間 對我而言彷彿是在統合這10多年的生命呢 認識我的人 一定會知道 我這個人思想不但很澳洲 且向來對於名和利 沒什麼特別的想法 也不慎積極 因為對我而言 那些東西好像都是在浪費生命 但是 最近我忽然有了強烈想要念書 念PhD的動機 真是要感謝那些刺激我激勵我的人啊 well 小孩子的我回來了嗎? 好問題 恩...不告訴你 當你見到我時就知道了 哈哈
另外 對於教書這事 我有了很多的想法跟看見 當然 仔細檢驗一下 過去我的堅持是對的 只是若有機會再重執教鞭 我想課堂上的元素 不會只有檢視及尊重自己的生命而已 下次要來開個進階班 如何面對其他的生命 原因是
我 做到我在課堂上要求學生的每件事了 但是 發現 忘了提醒 在這個世界上 有很多不OK的人 會做出甚至說出很多不可思議的事情呢! 哈哈 故事多到可以寫一本小說 有機會時我再慢慢的來分享
重點是 有時候我們看到的聽到的也許很真實 但是經過檢驗後確會發現不是那個樣子的
哈哈 所以依莉莎白老師之前和我合開的生涯規劃 他所教的那個用臉的表情就可以推敲一個人的心理 真是受用不少 我想他應該會給我個A Right Elz? 我呢功力越來越好呢
好啦 待我整理好 再來細說 再會啦

讓神動工

上帝給了我一本教科書 叫做愛
而我的病人 家屬 還有身旁的人 都是書中的章節跟主角
還給了我另外一本閱讀手冊 叫做 放下
放下自己 放下驕傲 放下重擔 ...手冊最後 有個考題是申論題
我很努力的寫 很努力的想要回答
並且很雀躍的覺得自己這次終於認真了 終於進入狀況了
沒想到一對答案時 才發現 答案是
讓神動工

wii

話說要買一台wii 來玩已經很久了... 好像是從去年過年一直講到今年的過年前...實在是1 忙 2 沒時間 3 我這個人向來是對別人大方對自己還蠻節省的 (這是真的啦! 我其實是個很簡樸的人呢! 哈哈 一定有人不相信不過是真的啦!) 反正真的是忙啦!總是有忙不完的事呢! 因此就這樣把這事擱下來 過年前真想好好的犒賞一下這兩個月來辛苦的自己 所以下定決心要找個時間帶我們家哥哥的那兩位小公主姊妹們去買台wii大家過年時好來一起玩一玩...嘿嘿 怎知 上帝真是供應的主 就在過年前三日 我們家哥哥竟然在尾牙中抽中一台 wii 哇塞 這下不但省下原本就不飽滿的荷包 還真是來的是時候呢
我自從生病後 發現自己心肺功能不佳 就沒再打過網球了 以前在台南念書時 我可是網球公主呢 幾乎每天下課都往成大的網球場跑 當然那裏有我的網球王子 我想那時也許因為打網球的關係所以身材也很好 這下有了wii 真是開心 又可以打網球 只是我們家弟弟說 不需要有甚麼標準的姿勢 就連坐著隨便亂揮都可以 但是我還是把它當成是在球場打球一樣 不過電玩就是電玩還是沒辦法跟在球場打球的感覺比呢 可是只要聽到 bo bo bo 那球擊在球拍上的聲音 心情就非常的好呢 哈哈 最近發現自己似乎在老化中 開始有許多的回憶跑出來 也開始追尋一些童年的記憶 這可真是好玩呢
不在學校了 但是忽然好想跟學生在一起再打一場羽毛球 好想在經歷一下那種流汗的感覺呢
哇 回到台北工作後 其實還有蠻多的生活習慣正在被改變或是已經改變了呢
例如 不能再飆車了 (再怎麼飆 開車從家裡到台大也不過十分鐘若是不塞車的話) 也不能沒課時 到尖石 竹東或內灣去下午茶一下 (台北市能去的地方不多) 更不能隨興的跟學生一起做瘋狂的事 或是打場好玩的球
最重要的是 不能隨意的搞笑 (也就是有趣的我 小孩的我 那個部分暫時出現較少了呢 )
所以各位看官 下次見到我時保證讓大家驚艷 哈哈(不過也不能把頭髮染得很亮麗) 且真的是變得有氣質了啦
這下我看不會有人反駁了吧 anyway 等我 wii 完後 我要開始來 騎我的小摺去上班了 這下 小黑(小摺) 變成我的交通工具 而我的大黑妞 (CRV)就要被我打入冷宮喽! 好啦 不多寫了 天氣變化 我身上的氣象台也正在報氣溫 咳不停呢 真是糟 看來這個冬天 真是要好好的仰望上帝呢 我可不要因為氣喘控制不好 而有什麼大的意外呢 那就真的是 wii 喽 只是 此wii 是 wheez 的聲音 哈哈哈

阿嬤的形影

阿嬤和阿公都是在國歷二月份時離開這個世界 阿公離開的那天我於隔日開學 因此被家人強迫要上飛機去回澳洲念書 對於華人而言 把書念好光耀門楣好像是件很重要的事 而阿嬤離開那天 我還在台大上班 接到電話時 正在準備下午要去行政院開會的會議資料呢 還記得 那天下午 快四點 我衝衝忙忙的飆車回家 看見救護車把阿嬤送回來 我的眼淚忍不住掉下來 但是依照習俗 不能哭 不能流淚 因此我只好躲在一旁輕輕的拭淚
最近 因為工作的關係 跟環境也有關吧 那個小孩子的我漸漸的不見了或是躲起來了 也許這樣感覺上比較有氣質 但是我可是一點都不喜歡呢 寫完這首歌後 忽然發現自己還真是個才女 哈哈哈 真是可惜呢 沒能被好好的栽培往這條路發展 因為對保守的家族而言這都是不務正業 只能休閒用 要不百年後 也許我是另一個文藝名人也說不一定喔 (哈哈 這是開玩笑的 我還是才疏學淺 有許許多多的不足處 創作 對我而言只是一種抒發 一種情感的宣洩方式而已 ) 同事跟我說覺得我的台語進步了 想想好像是耶 不過 福建話 華語 跟英文 加上最近常用的印尼話 這 還真是有時會讓我一下子錯亂呢
改天 把譜弄好 錄好音後 再請諸位欣賞 這首會催淚的歌



阿嬤的形影
詞、曲：謝於真
細漢的時候 阿嬤牽著我（穩）的手 走過大大小小的街仔路
Se han e shi-guan Ah ma kan duo wen e chou Gean gua dua dua se se e ge ya lo

阿嬤的手 白白夠幼幼 甲我牽緊緊 怕我會不見
Ah ma e chou Bea bea guo yu yu Ga wen kan deo deo Gean wen e pam ki

讀書的時候 阿嬤站在街仔頭 等著放學的我們
Ta che e shi-guan Ah ma kea de ge ya tao Den duo ban o e wen

阿嬤的面容 期待夠歡喜 甲我睛著（仔細）看 驚我會走迷
Ah ma e min zuon Chi dai guo hua he Ga wen gen gou kuan Gean wen e chuao mei



大漢的時候 我牽著阿嬤的手 走過細漢走過的路
Dua han e shi-guan Wen kan duo ah ma e chou Gean gua se han gean gua e lo

阿嬤的手 實在真溫暖 甲伊牽緊緊 怕伊沒時間等我牽
Ah ma e chou Shi-zei gou wen zuan Ge e kan deo deo Gean e meo shi gean dean wen kan

阿嬤要回去前 牽著我的手 甲我說伊這世人就幸福也很值得
Ah ma mei dean kei gen Kan deo wen e chou Ge wen guon e gi ci zuan guo hen ho ma guo ge da

牽著阿嬤的手 我怎樣都不捨得放 不捨阿嬤就這樣離開
Ken deo ah ma e chou Wen an zhua luan mu gun ban Mu gun ah ma guo ah nei li gue

阿嬤 阿 阿嬤 你現在好嗎 牽著伊的手 眼睛張開原來是夢一場
Ah ma a ah ma Ni gim ma ho mo Kan deo yi e chou Ma gu be quan yuan lai chi gi duan mon

阿嬤 阿 阿嬤 你在哪裡 緊緊追尋 眼睛張開阿嬤已經不在
Ah ma a ah ma Ni de deo we Ga ni de deo doe Ma gu be quan ah ma e gen muo de


阿嬤 阿 阿嬤 輕聲叫著別人的阿嬤
Ah ma a ah ma Kean cean guo deo ba zuan e ah ma

阿嬤 阿 阿嬤 牽著別的阿嬤的手
Ah ma a ah ma Ken deo ba e ah ma e chou

但是心頭想的念得都是阿嬤的形影
M guo shin guan tao shoun e lean e loan si ah ma e hean ean

公主與青蛙The Princess and the Frog

好久沒有時間好好的看一部電影了! 原因就是忙忙忙! 各位看官不是我常說的現代人的盲忙茫!至少目前為止還是喔!公主與青蛙The Princess and the Frog 真是一部耐人尋味也有很多地方值得討論的片子呢! 可惜的是我不再上 生死學與臨終關懷的課 要不這可是一部很棒的片子呢! 不過 放心啦 等DVD一出來我會收藏的
人生就是如此 特別是新年 我們常用恭喜發財 財源滾滾來 ...跟財 跟錢 跟名 跟利 有關的事祝福別人 而好多人終其一生所追求的也都是這些東西呢 很多人懷抱著很大很大的夢想 我也覺得人一定要有夢想 但是轉念一想 如果那個夢想只是為著實現某些自認為尚未實現的遺憾 那麼真的就很辛苦 看到故事中的女主角因為爸爸過世 然後就拼命的賺錢為的是要完成爸爸曾經想要開酒吧的夢想 心中有許許多多的感觸呢 不過很棒的事 最後她看清楚了 也覺察到 其實 爸爸什麼都不想要 他已經有他想要的 就是家人就是愛 因此她明智的決定開餐廳不再是她的夢想 因為比不過愛... That's so great... 因為這世界上有很多的人拼命的追求這些物質或是外在的東西 卻遺失了愛 到頭來 等到面對生死時真的是一場空呢
我不是職業病啦 這就是我的人生哲學一直沒有變過呢
哈哈 多說無益 有空時也去看看這部片吧 相信會有很多的想法喔
還有 新年快樂 情人節快樂 也謝謝諸位的電郵跟簡訊 收到了 但那些沒留名的人 下次記得留名啦 要不我真的無法猜出您是誰 因為又換了一支手機 還未把電話部完全上傳好 (有空時我會做啦)
願上帝繼續保守及祝福大家喔
於真敬上

影子
謝於真2010/2/7
只要有光的地方就會有影子

當光線越強離我們越近時，影子的顏色也就越深形狀也就越清楚


說得更明白點，任何的影子只不過是實體的投射所產生出來的形象

也許我們可以由影子推測出那個被投射的物體為何?


然而 影子終究是影子 常常會虛晃一場 吸引我們的目光 蓋過許多真實面呢
小時候 天真的我常常與影子賽跑 試圖追逐著影子

年紀漸長後發現 這世界上有許許多多的人 活在虛幻的影子中

當黑暗來臨 光線不在時 影子就無法產生

而那些靠著影子生活 或是不真實面對自己的人們

終有一天 因為影子不在而被迫面對真實的自己時

將會發現 過往的種種是多麼幼稚又可笑的事啊

有些人利用影子來訴說自己的可憐遭遇

也有些人善用影子來吸引目光甚至搏取同情

然而現在的我非常堅定 不再像年少時會隨著影子起舞

當有一天那個光在離我們最近的正上方時

影子自然而然不再顯現 而所有的事實跟真理也將呼之欲出呢

所以 影子啊影子 充其量您也不過是個被投射出的影像罷了

千萬別再寄望我 會追著您跑 或是對您有任何的反應或高度的期待呢

回家前的巧遇
謝於真
2010/1/30

週四(1/28)下班回家，就在快到家的路上，忽然有人從鐵板燒的店家衝出來對著我大叫『老師！老師』，我當時嚇了一大跳！想說是誰？回頭一看，忽然發現是『范范』范馨尹，她是明新老服系前年畢業的系友，目前正在榮總的高齡醫學中心當個管師。
其實，也真是奇妙，前些時候我在台大醫學院的公佈欄上看見范范的爸爸『范光勳』的名字，范范的爸爸是醫學院的大體老師，然後期末考那週不知為何才從其他同事口中聽說她在榮總工作，心理才正惦記著這個小瓜，結果卻在這樣的場合下巧遇！
范范在大四的時候修我的生死學與臨終關懷的課，課程進行到一半，因為他在課堂上實在恍神的厲害不知發生什麼事，我實在很想把她抓來談一談，瞭解一下狀況！一個週三的下午，我在教研室的外頭剛好遇見她，於是她跟我談了幾個問題，關於醫療關於爸爸的病，我那時終於恍然大悟為何她會恍神？也有點疑惑？因為范范的爸爸病危，可是不知為何她卻一直來上課，從不缺課？所以我就問了她一些問題，當然她也成為我優先掛號諮商的對象（因為當時要找我談的人實在多，所以真是要約時間也要排隊），在談過之後，才知道有些人竟然勸她『不要缺課，要好好的讀書，因為她的爸爸也會希望她好好的讀書…』我那時，心理想『天阿！這是什麼安慰人的方式？簡直是把人套在一個框框中，怎會有人隨便的勸一個正在面對至親的生命存亡生死關頭的人，要專注在其他的事上？？？讀書跟成績有那麼的重要嗎？＊＆＆︿︿％』於是，我幫范范釐清當時她所面對的問題，其實她雖來上課雖然待在學校中但是心中還是一直惦記著爸爸，既吃不下飯也睡不著！當天在會談之後，我們一起禱告為著她心中的不安，也為著爸爸的病，然後一起做了一些決定，我告訴她，不用來上課沒關係，因為心理一直惦記著爸爸所以還是回去醫院陪爸爸，至於其他老師的課，我會幫她處理，也請她去跟班導說一下，讓班導也去跟其他的老師也打一下招呼。後來我把手機的號碼留給她，要她隨時可以跟我保持聯絡，如果有需要幫忙時！
那一週我接到她的簡訊，它跟我說爸爸於清晨平靜的過世了，她很謝謝我告訴她也支持她回台北陪爸爸…她的爸爸過世後，我仍然一直陪伴她甚至參加爸爸的追思，因為范范的爸爸把大體捐出因此追思會是在台大醫學院舉辦的，還記得那是一個週三的下午，我們服務事業學院正在舉行尊嚴照顧與 創新服務研討會，每個老師都有分配到工作，而在下我的大教授哥哥正好也要來學校發表他的論文大作，所以原本是打算當天我跟哥哥只要開一部車到新竹就好，最後我放了哥哥鴿子，也把手上的工作暫轉給其它人然後到台大來參加范范爸爸的追思會！
週四和范范的巧遇，我問了她近況,也跟她說我在醫學院的佈告欄上有看見她爸爸的名字！她跟我說，她爸爸已經完成大體老師的任務將要火化，未來將會葬在法鼓山採用植葬的方式…還跟我提到不久前到醫學院見爸爸的最後一面，心中還是有些感觸…我跟她說：『這樣很正常阿！爸爸跟她那麼親，不思念不難過那才奇怪』於是我們就這樣很深入的談了許多的事，除了爸爸的事外最好玩的是她竟然一直跟我說謝謝，還說我教他們的那些評估方式還有技巧果真的很受用，很有幫助…。我那時只覺得好笑，因為他們那一屆選修A模組 長期照護管理的同學，就會上到我開的『健康評估與照護計畫』那門課，因為我們寶貝學生，實在年輕，在做任何事之前都不先搞清楚整體狀況，就馬上要去完成任務，所以他們當時上我的課真是哇哇叫！因為我忽然間變成『謝大刀』嚴厲的要求上課前要讀Papers然後要隨堂小考，結果一次，再沒有告知的情況下，我一上課就考試，當天的考卷全是英文出題A4紙的題目滿滿一張，全是申論跟情況題，限時20分完成，但是我在最後一題，寫上這份考卷不需回答，只需在背面寫上班級學號跟姓名便可，且只要答題一題不但不給分還倒扣10分…還真是震撼，特別對那些拼命回答的同學，那一個測驗全班只有兩個人的分數是正的，原因是因為遲到所以沒時間寫因此高分，幾乎全軍覆沒都是負的！很多人在課堂隨記上寫上忽然的考試真是心理超級不爽想要罵髒話，也覺得自己從來沒考過那麼低分，但是卻忽然明白在評估時，是評估一個人，所以必須從頭先看到尾而不是只是一昧的想要完成評估的動作而已…且評估前的解釋跟告知真是重要！哈哈！沒想到那時的震撼教育，現在竟然換來認同及感激的回饋！那屆之後我因為實在課太多，所以再也沒上過那堂課！不過到了台大來之後，我發現一件事，就是自己的堅持是對的！另外，生死學與臨終關懷的課並不是唸唸課本或是放放PPT就可以的，我雖然從不用教科書但也不是反對使用教科書啦！只是….！因為如果我們連在學校的生命教育都沒把關好都沒做好，那麼當這些人在生命上頭遇到難處時，遇到生死關頭時，將會花更多的時間在追尋一些不必要的治療與處置上，而忽略了可以好好陪伴與增進生活品質這塊，最慘的事，當自己的親人過世後，那個當時的決定將會讓自己在後悔與愧對中掙扎著，而哀傷的部份也將會比其他人來的長也更難處理呢！Agree?

十架的路
謝於真
2010/1/26
十架的路是一條什麼樣的路
沒有金銀 沒有財寶
但卻有滿滿的喜樂

十架的路是一條什麼樣的路
沒有昂貴的跑車和華麗的房屋
但卻有奇妙的恩典和無限的祝福

十架的路是一條富足的路
帶領人走出黑暗迎向光明
十架的路是一條祝福的路
當下不明白日後卻結出平安的果子
喔 十架的道路是神為我預備的路
十架的道路是我一生將走之路

我

我
喜歡自由自在無拘無束的自己
因為自由所以灑脫
因為不被限制所以能夠跳出框框
喜歡風趣幽默又搞笑的自己
因為風趣所以可以貼近人心
因為幽默又搞笑可以搏君一笑
喜歡直接且簡單的自己
因為直接所以真誠
因為簡單所以不拘小節
我 這就是我

雜記

這一週發生許多事！It’s a busy week for me. 週一跟週五感謝同事汶茹跟莉莉在我有突發狀況時可以伸出援手出來 Cover 我的班，讓我得以搞定職登的事以及有空可以去參加學生的告別式！更加感恩上帝讓我願意面對自己氣喘的問題開始當個遵從的病人，當然還有許許多多值得感恩的事呢！總歸一句就是謝謝天，謝謝上帝在我生命所發生的每一件事！
參加學生的告別式，心中真是五味雜陳！學生在最後一堂的考卷上寫著,他還有許多夢要完成，也寫著希望自己健康好一點，不要氣喘…在12/22的課堂上他抽到我給的小禮物上面的小卡片寫著：『幸福就在隨手可得之處！ 好好珍惜身旁的人事物』他在作業上回應：『有家人跟另一半的支持就是幸福也很滿足』年輕的生命短短的二十寒暑就這樣劃上句點！這個學生是一位心思細膩思想也前衛的人，離開告別式的會場，我在回台北的路上腦還中一直想著一件事！『哎呀！的確有多少人能夠邀請老師參加告別式呢！他果真前衛，也是第一人！』（不過我還是希望大家都平平安安的，別再有類似的事件發生）。有同事說：建議主任應該要去拜拜，免得這樣的事一直發生！因為我們系上在一年多前也有兩個學生在上完體育課準備從高爾夫球練習場返回學校的途中被大卡車雙雙輾斃！那時我還專任，還正在上生死學與臨終關懷的課呢！不過我卻認為，沒有必要！原因是生命本身就很無常，我們每個人都無法預知我們生命的長短，把死亡跟運氣放在一起只不過是一種自我安慰的說法，與其如此到還不如教導我們的學生正視生命的價值瞭解存在的意義並且把握當下時時感恩呢！
另外！終於有時間好好的計算成績並且把成績送出去了！有沒有當人？Well, Yes! 日間部3人進修部2人！不過多數的人都不需要擔心啦！對了！我的『三不』是：1不可使用立可白及其相關產品(原因是 一對健康不好 二 法律上的文件若用力可白塗改視為偽造文書) 2 不可使用手機及相關3C產品 3. 不可以送老師任何形式的禮物 這些在教學大綱上還有上第一堂課時都說過！ 所以＊＆＆︿％ 我看到有人寫到 不可以叫老師袁唯仁 、有人發表意見時不可以說話、不可以說髒話、態度要好…哇！ 當然沒分且三條線！ 哈哈 我是不喜歡您們叫我袁唯仁或小胖老師啦！是不喜歡您們出口成髒更要求您們的態度 但是那些不都是基本的嗎！ 還有本人的名字是『謝於真』怎有人幫我改名還改姓？最好玩的是靜有人寫了『就是那個很有名的老師』哈哈哈！ 還是沒分！ 我的寶貝們！上課那麼久連我的名字都不知那可就一點都不好玩了！至少我幾乎認識且記得您們喔！
還有一點，我不是謝神算啦！那些話都是上帝要給您們的，至於為什麼會準只好問上帝嘍！另外，聖誕節發小禮物跟糖果，不是系上的傳統只有上我的課的學生有，原因是我是基督徒所以聖誕節對我而言很據意義，再者也是鼓勵大家被我摩了一學期！所以請不要隨便跟別的老師要糖果或小禮物啦！
另外有人問我教學評量對我會不會有影響！哈哈！當然不會！因為每年我都是超過系上跟全校的平均值呢！再者，對我而言評量的分數高低並不能夠代表一個老師的好壞，就像我跟您們說的 成績的高低也不等同於您是好學生或壞學生一樣！
Anyway 放寒假了，好好的跟家人相處吧！最後您可以把您的部落格關起來了！特別是那位造成新竹科學園區轟動的小姐！ 哈哈
May God bless us
於真敬上

給學生的一封信

To all my dearest students
平安! 真是不好意思,說好要寫信給大家但是卻一直沒有動筆!當然忙是一個原因另外其實我也還沒整理好! 原因是2003年我呢便開始到明新服務,在這個過程中經歷過許許多多的事, 包含SARS時我正在上第一屆學長姐的公共衛生且正好教到傳染病防治,於是在課堂上我問學長姐『如果是你們,願不願意去照顧傳染病的個案?』 學長姐給我的回應是『90%願意』至於那個10%不是真的不願意,而是考慮到家人! 當下我很感動,所以在講台上我告訴學長姐『如果是我我也會願意』，後來SARS疫情爆發,因著信仰也因著對學長姐的承諾我志願進入和平照顧SARS的病人,當然後來也被感染了! 常常有人介紹我時都會使用『抗sars英雄』其實我不是很喜歡, 因為我只不過是做了一件很平凡的事,且我相信我所教過的學生們也同樣會在別人的需要上擺上! 所以我寧願您們叫我「袁唯仁」或是「小胖老師」(哈哈 不過如果你真的在考卷上這樣寫,那麼不但沒有分還會被倒扣)。

在明新的這些日子,有著許許多多的磨練與遭遇,很感恩的是信仰給了我很棒的幫助,而且我最享受的就是教學就是和學生(您們)一起的這一塊! 我其實自己也知道, 第一次上我的課的人一定會被我許多的龜毛規定還有上課方式震撼著,甚至會想要抗拒,但是我依然故我還是堅持要這麼做,要您們在大庭廣眾下包著尿布告訴別人你包尿布還要請人簽名!要您們不斷的思考自己生命的價值,不斷的面對自己的問題,更加要求您們在待人處事上的態度! 我常說:「我希望我的學生是資優生不是績優生!」當然不是說成績優異不好,而是結果也許重要但是過程更是需要被珍惜被重視!
上週六我和第二屆的學姊(我的班導生就是傳說中很令人頭痛的那屆)一起去宜蘭探訪另一個學姊,當天我很感動且更加確信我的堅持是對的!特別是和學姊的媽媽有一段談話後,我想是阿!我們不是國立大學的學生不是台大、清大、交大的高材生但是在職場上,在人生的旅途上真的一點也不輸人,且還是許多生命的祝福呢!

過去這幾年,曾經有好多的同事或是老師詢問我上課的方式跟內容,甚至有人還當面跟我要所有的資料,我並沒有真的給予因為一學期下來,我想大家會發現即便用相同的教材但是結果也不會一定一樣,原因沒有別的是因為我是謝於真!而謝於真之所以不同是因為我的所有課程設計都有一個很重要的元素就是「生命」跟「態度」說自己是用生命在教學用生命在陪伴生命一點也不為過呢!當然背後還有一個非常重要的元素就是「GOD」！ 我真的相信一切都是上帝的安排跟祝福！讓我可以更加貼近您們！更加瞭解您們也包容您們！
這學期快接近尾聲時,我到了台大從事跟遠距照護相關的工作,因此沒能好好的在您們的作業上回應,在我們當中我知道有很多人遭遇到生命中的難處更困難,我其實很想受每週改作業的時間也很感恩您們願意信任我願意把生命中這些難處跟我分享！每次在讀到您們所遭遇到的困難時我的心中總是充滿著許許多多的不捨,也許作業上的 GOD BLESS YOU!看似我的招牌,是一定要有的,但是老師我要很明白的讓您們知道我在蓋下那個章或是寫下那句話得同時真的有位您們每個人禱告,因為我深知在這個世界上我能力有限但是愛我看顧我的上帝一定也顧念我所愛的每一位學生同事還有身旁的人！但是很遺憾的是，進修部二乙的班代在上完我的課後因病過世！那一堂課是大家最後一次見到他，而我當天就發現他身體出了極大的問題還囑咐他要就醫…沒想到那卻成了我跟他最後的對話！其實他的生命出現了極大的危機我一直都很清楚他很辛苦的在承擔及面對某些事情！當然您們當中的每一位都是,很遺憾的是我雖然告訴大家要把握當下,但是卻理所當然的認為還有時間,於是我原本打算利用期末考面試每個人的機會鼓勵您們謝謝您們也祝福您們！卻沒想到我卻來不及跟他說…

有同學聽聞我下學期不在明新了,不再教您們是因為我有更好的工作或是我要去更好得地方…不是啦！在我的心中我從來沒有過這樣的想法即便是去其他的學校演講我都覺得我的學生最寶貝！因為我看見您們生命的改變也有幸可以在人生的道路上陪您們一起走過這段路！我真的沒有放棄您們啦！所以不要想太多,那些都不是事實！除非是我親口說的！還記得我問您們十年後的自己會是如何？每個人都有很多的回應！而我呢…我想十年後的我已經完成進修然後回到教育的崗位上且成為一個更具影響力的『人』師！至於在哪裡在哪個學校我無法告訴大家,因為我也不知道我的主我的上帝會把我擺在哪裡！但是如果可以也有機會的話十年後再來作我的研究生吧！
這學期很謝謝大家對我的課的支持！我的嶄牌都沒機會真的用到呢！至於點名一事！好吧！是的！我就是學長姐口中奸詐狡猾的謝於真老師！我是真的不點名但是出席率如何看？就從作業！當然有幾個同學明明沒來還有人幫忙操刀我知道嗎？當然也知道,不過還好這些人即時回頭！不過大家也不需要太計較為何我會這樣說原因是沒來上課或是遲到錯過某些活動或分享本來就是極大的損失呢！同意嗎？
To 日二甲乙
一開始上您們的課有好多時候真的是要心臟病發作！當然不是所有的同學都這樣,我呢其實花了很多的時間在思考與禱告！一學期下來看見您們極大的轉變在思考上在行為上還有態度上！這讓我非常的欣慰也感動！人生的路上會遭遇什麼樣的情況雖然我號稱謝神算其實我也不知道因為一切都在上天的手上！但是我確信一件事那就是您們已經有勇氣面對自己面對問題！還有不要辜負『大學生』的名分,讀書很重要但是知識是一時的是會不斷的改變的,課餘的時候該參加社團的就參加該玩的就去玩！雖然我們是老服系 但是千萬別把自己年輕的生命定義成什麼都不可以或是不能作這樣可比老人更老人喔！加油！您們很棒！沒問題的！
To夜老二甲乙
我很感恩再次教到您們！我知道又要工作又要讀書真的很辛苦！也謝謝您們願意信任我願意更我一起檢視生命！在過程中我真的看到好多人的轉變雖然有的時候我因為要改得作業太多很期待有些人就乾脆缺課別來,但是還是很謝謝大家的支持！我知道有很多人只是要一張證書而已,因為那是門檻,但是不管未來您們在哪個領域上頭我都相信只要是我所教過的學生都可以無愧於自己跟別人也可以很光明正大的站在陽光下被檢驗！韋杉的事我很遺憾也很難過！原本想再明新的最後一堂課要給你們祝福且要有個好的Ending但沒想到自己還是流下眼淚！大家就好好得幫忙他把後事處理好送他最後一程吧！至於他還未來得及實現的夢想活夠的部份我們就很努力的幫他活下去吧！關於我的聯絡方式可以透過部落格或是去系辦跟舒雯要我的電郵 但是請不要寄垃圾信件 電話我上班時其實不方便接電話但是如果真的急請務必留言我一定會回覆的 我真的很感恩可以認識您們 教到您們 至於未來如何？目前無法跟大家報告 但是很期待您們當中有人可以來作我的研究生喔！先這樣吧！
最後願上帝祝福大家保守大家
GOD BLESS YOU (這是一定要的)
於真敬上
PS 至於之前被我當過的人 很抱歉請去重修其他老師的課吧 如果好好努力相信一定不會在被當的！